Me my past love talking again?

I went out wifd her for 4 years ,my boisz said I was to young to b in serius relacionship I got scare n decited to let her go ,just to go leave the party life , but at the same time I met another girl just be messing around ,but felt in love wifd the other girl . I felt bad for my girl cusz she really love me n wanna to have my kids ,she was loyal n truthful all the time ,but I was ready moving on wifd this other chick . Make story short a year went by this other play me a left for another guy ,she kill my hopes n broke my heart ,the nasty way a girl can go looking like ho3,i told her why she did that ,went I gave everything for her even left go of my gurl for 4 years just give her a chance .

Now after all pain me and my gurl for 4 years starded talking again I just ask her to forgive me ,she told me she did a long time ago..i explain what this other girl did to me , she told me she knew she was gonna do that cuss her respect is known as a ho3.....started crying cuss I gave everything to the girl ,she just left me and play me like nothing n put me down went all I did was to give her my love ..i told my gurl sorry and to forgive me that start all over like a new man ..

I even call the girl that play me I told her ,to be happy with him and she laught at my face n told I only use u n he better them u...that crush my world ,idk why she said that all did was love her gave her everything ....i felt my life was over ,hurt that last bitt off my heart plz help advice