Seriously considering just driving off a bridge or something...?

I like how everyones pretty much just saying suck it up, and saying he doesnt have it that bad. You arent living his life, only he knows what its like, assholes.

Im sorry Chris, but know that it gets better. Life goes up and down, your just stuck in the down right now. Just focus on your priorities, and the important things, and itll get better. And if you want a gay friend, then maybe i can message you my number or something. :]

Hey Chris it seems like you're going through a rough time right now and a lot in your life is piling up on you and making you this crazy things! But 1st have you considered maybe getting out of the band to save sum $ I know that its probably the one thing you feel that's keeping your sanitity but we all have to make sacrafices that we don't want too! And 2nd you should know that you're not the only 1 going through these similar struggles just feel blessed that you have supporive friends when your familys not there for you.. I'm in a position where I'm also gay and none of my friends or family members know. I haven't told them bc I don't have any support in that area right now. I luckily do have an amazing supportive bf of almost 4 years and I met him on craigslist which is crazy and I was younger when I made the choice to do that bc I would not recommend going that route now to meet someone I was lucky and had god on my side that day. But have you looked into any LBGT clubs that your school may have and maybe you could see if any of your friends could introduce you to any1 that might be single? Just remember life is never easy and there will always be 1 problem after another in life. If you ever need someone to talk too you can email me at roxford507@hotmail.com. Or you could even call a suicide hotline but just don't become another statistic or headline in the paper bc once you make that choice there is no turning back from it. And don't put your family and friends who truly love you thru something like that! REMEMBER IT GETS BETTER!! Best of luck to you! And seriously don't be afraid or ashamed to e-mail me if you need some1 to talk to bc I know where you're coming from and as far as the other replies to your posting ignore the negative 1s they respond to get their points and there is a lot more a$$ holes then kind ppl in this world it is sad but true

Chris, you seem really stressed out and it's understandable. School and friends can be very time consuming. Often when we don't make time to just allow ourselves to breathe, we tend to lose our inner passion and sense of self thus making life seem like a blur.

Since everyone copes with stress differently, I think you should find your own way to basically 'meditate' and just have your moment of introspection. Make some time to just be by yourself. Surrounding yourself with people when you're stress can actually cause more confusion. You need to do some self-reflection and essentially figure yourself out, man.

Also, don't ever rush yourself when it comes to relationships. I understand from your point of view, it seems like the ultimate greatest thing in the world and you want to just jump on board and experience the enchanting, euphoric, tranquil feeling it can bring.

It's okay and very normal to want to be in love with someone and be loved back. However, when you rush things like that, more than likely they turn into a disaster.

You'll find someone when the moment is right. For now, make things right with yourself first. Starting with your mindset.

Not everyone goes through your pain and feels what you feel, each person has it differently but in their eyes there pain is just as bad. You dont want to be another name on the headline of a newspaper soonly forgotten. Suicide is like quitting for those who are not strong enough to make it. Stick it out and things can change, give life a chance to bring you good.

-JPG

PS: Gods not real like the other people are saying, specifically the girl below me.

Aww. I'm sorry :( it could be worse! I promise. Just pray to God I'm telling you he helps he is there. Maybe get your prioritys straight and tell your dad your a grown man to stop yelling at u . Maybe dont put all your money into the band. Think about yourself sometimes. Just do something that makes you feel better. Eat some food :) makes me feel better :)

What makes your life worse then anyone else?

You should be thankful that your in college & have a chance to achieve higher for yourself, this is part of growing up, sacrificing.

You should be thankful that your dad is letting you stay with him, even if he treats you bad, at least you dont got to worry about spending hundreds of dollars every month.

You should be thankful you have a job, especially in this economy

You should be thankful that you have friends who support you for who you are

You should be thankful that you have talent with music

You shouldn't have to rely on people to make you happy, because if your unhappy already then your going to feel like crap when you 'fall in love' to soon & it ends

I would lay off the band for a while to save up to move somewhere else..'

At least your parents didn't force you to go to church and kick you out forcing you to fend for yourself among another things. Trust me, you don't have it that bad....