I've been feeling really down and suicidal for the last few years but I'm too afraid to seek help?

Hi,i was once like you many thoughts went through my head who can i share it with who can i trust,in the end i went to see my Dr and he got me help it took a few months but it was the best few months of my life spilling all my problems to a councilor,60 % of us suffer with depression,20%want to get better,20% don't know they have it and 20 % don't care either way and its that last 20 % that end up in a coffin i was a undertaker for 15 yrs and i have seen what becomes of a person that takes there own life its not nice and the after effects that it causes the family and friends,some never get over some one they love taking there life they then think its there fault they did not see the signs,they did not help,they would be riddled with guilt,please read all this as i did read all yours,

i do agree not to tell your dad as you are right he may feel he is to blame which he is not of course.Please don't think you are ugly fat or any thing else all that is ,is your mind is playing tricks with you,what you need to do is find some thing to focus on and make it your goal,but don't put your self down all the time yes you will have your bad days,do what i do go and run a nice hot bath get some candles and place them around your bath tub ,let them all and turn off your main light and just lay there for about 45 min no less and let your mind drift away into another world some where nice trust me by the time you get out you WILL feel allot better please try it .good luck

Yeah, sounds kinda like my situation, though suicide isn't something I ever consider. I can't honestly say that it doesn't pass through my thoughts, I'd just rather not bother with it. I'm to curious to see what will happen tomorrow, even if it might be something bad. It's just how I keep going. And then I get to thinking about the novels I'd never get to write, the world events I'd never get to see unfold, the kids I'd never get to have and the fact that I've got two loving sisters who I should just abandon like that. I generally keep all my problems to myself and don't tell my friends, but it's not like I don't want to hear their problems. That might be how it is for you first friend. Just go ahead and try talking to them; sometimes just talking about things will honestly make you feel better. My problem is that I don't really have any close friends to open up to, just two kinda friends that I'd prefer not to scare off with all my problems. Some people just honestly prefer to keep their issues to themselves, though. Think of it this way, though: it could be worse. Being someone else is sometimes a bad thing. Think of it this way: if you were me, people would think you're pretty to the point where they have crushes on you. 'Cept the second they catch a glimpse of your personality they get angry that you didn't fit the cookie cutter they'd set out for you. Or having people be able to innocently good your name trying to find your Facebook, then having them find that your the daughter of criminal. That really sucks. Like really really sucks. ^^;;

The fact that it isn't worse is a blessing in and of itself. Eating foods I like is something that keeps me going. I really like food, and trying all sorts of new things~ So just focus on the things you do like in life instead of the things you don't. And talk to your friend to at least be talking to someone. Look, you've already taken the first step by posting this question here~ :)

well 1 of the things i think is u need some one to tell ur problems to or just some one to talk to an vent u can if u want email me rainbowstarbunny34@yahoo.com any time im here for ya :)