Do I Have Narcissistic Personality Disorder?

Every day I aspire to be successful yet I'm just sat at home on Facebook wasting precious time, just expecting that one day I will be rich and everybody will like me for who I am. I'm failing college because of it.

I wouldn't say that I was an outcast, my school experiences were not bad, I just coped with people whom I had to; to always put on a mask in front of others - to never show my emotions - yet I craved for people to see who I really was, but I was too afraid of that. I loathed those who were carefree about life, who were more outgoing than I have ever been yet always managed to get the grade, but have recently been throwing their lives down the drain. I hate them. They have had everything I wanted but I never did.

I'm just so confused. I'm aware of the reality, but my heart is set on this deluded dream. It's like I have a gut feeling that life will work out for me, but I can see from some people around me that life's not like that. I'm just set on achieving that one in a million chance of becoming that person who others will aspire to, dismissing other opportunities that will get me by in life.