Should i push through or give it up?....?

I'm 24 and have known I'm Bi for a long time, watch gay and straight porn in equal ammounts but find I'm more romantically attracted to women than men. Anyways I recently broke up with my girlfriend of 4 years and decided to sign up to a few gay dating sites and eventually got chatting with a guy who lives near me, he's 38 but sent me pics and is a really handsome guy.

I met him a few times and then went to his place, we chatted for a couple of hours and then he gave me a tour of the house and when we got to the bedroom one thing led to another which I was really glad about! We gave each other a bj which was amazing at the time but afterwords I felt really awkward and horrible, just wanted to get the hell out of there.

Now that I've had some time to process it I'm kinda back to where I started, indecisive about what I want. I really loved giving him head it was great and I want to try it again but with someone my own age, but I'm really worried that it'll just end the same way with me feeling horrible and just wanting to get out.

So if you were in this situation what would you do? Try it again anyway and hope for the best? Or give up the gay thing and concentrate on finding the girl of your dreams?