How can I find hope and find a reason to live again?

ok, I'm not very religious at all, but I do belive when God closes all these doors, he opens a window. I do understand, as I am close to your age, and lately everything seems to be going in a downward spiral. Ever noticed, when you change your enviroment, say a vacation or something, its like another life. That means you are capable of change. Life will get good again. I'm hoping at your age there are no more bullies. As far as physical dissabilities, there are so many people born with them that need friends and companions too. Life is what you make of it. Start something for yourself that you have never done before. something fun. a hobby, sport, class, etc... You will not meet those special people sitting in your home, or doing the same thing everyday. Everyone of us is special, and we all deserve a good life. Its your turning point. Grab the bull by the horns, and be positive. You must try, as you are the only one who can really do it.

I absolutly hate medication, but you say your in therapy. have they siggested an antidepressant either medication or natural? Also, if at all possible, try to take a cruise somewhere. something about being on the ocean gives you a sense of well being, and clears your mind for new positive beginnings.

I freed myself from religion at the age of 12, I realised i could not by any means be given the "god" speculation. The item with finding atheism at a young age as that, is that you're still sufficiently full of wonder on the world to appreciate the right here and now - not annoying about the future. I've never, in all that time considering that, misplaced my love of lifestyles - regardless of some real terrible times alongside the way. Through dwelling lifestyles in the definite knowledge that it is the only one i will ever have and that the arena is just not right here for my improvement - i am simply lucky to be around to peer it - i'm far more determined to fairly experience it in all its colors and texture. After we grow older, accountability wears us down. We forget that the universe is an awsome position; we fail to remember to observe how gorgeous the planet we survive is; that persons can create such wonderous art and song and technologies; a million things that charmed and delighted us as youngsters, we omit. There are some grasping bastards in this world, for definite... They make the most it and us, and we let them. But there are a a long way larger quantity of notable, actual, warm, variety, stunning, brave, honest people. Some are into god, some don't seem to be, all of them care in regards to the world and about being the very exceptional they can be. That's my reason for living. Lifestyles is about the journey, not the vacation spot. I'll have no reward or punishment on the end of it, but i'll have some amazing experiences getting to that end.

Im sorry for your condition. People who don't judge you for how you look are who's opinions matter the most. There are always a few ppl out there so try to find them. Hang out with your friend a lot and try to talk about things other than your appearance. You have a reason to live because you have family. If you died they would be crushed so just keep reminding yourself. Try to find your talent and it will make you feel better and not useless.