Do you think My life is as Horrible as I do?

Yeah, your life sounds difficult. But the good news is that most of it is still ahead of you and there is always time to change it. Become the person you want to be. If you have no money find a job, if you don't like your body start working out. I know these things are easier said than done but not impossible. All you need is the will power and determination to change you life, and it sounds like you've been storing up 32 years worth of it. You also need to be ready to step outside your comfort zone. Everything will be difficult and none of it will feel right at first, but you will get used to it. Hopefully as you take the steps to change your life the confidence will come in time. If you really are too afraid to leave the house I would try talking to a therapist.

From a here and now perspective, I will say Yes, I do agree.

However, that does not mean that you cannot turn your life around.

Remember, those who have nothing, also have nothing to lose.

Consider yourself cornered by the horrors of Life. Suicide is to surrender. Survive is to fight to the end. I won't attempt to influence your choices- that is up to you. Good luck.

dude when the world says give up HOPE whispers try one more time.your time is coming there is a girl out there waiting for you to come into her life be cool good things happen to those who wait