TEEN BORDERLINE PD? Been through + seen all abuse + other things. Not enough room 4 more detail?

Im 15

1. Frantic efforts to avoid real or imagined abandonment.

WHENEVER I FEEL LIKE SOMEONE I INSTANTLY WANT TO BECOME MORE CLOSE WITH IS DISTANSING THEMSELVES FROM ME, I'll do anything for them and with friends constantly invite them to places. I have a fear of being left with no one.

2&3. A pattern of unstable and intense interpersonal relationships characterized by alternating between extremes of idealization and devaluation. This is called "splitting."

Identity disturbance: markedly and persistently unstable self-image or sense of self.

I can and so instantly go from loving to hating people, usually by little things but seem big to me. It causes lots of fights and its not something I can control. I also do it to myself. When I believe I'm bad, I feel like I should kill myself, I also think I'm very fat during this and usually starve myself. The longest the starving and constant hate for myself went on was about a month, but usually only lasts a couple of days before I switch back to thinking I'm okay, or just go normal.

4. Impulsivity in at least two areas that are potentially self-damaging (e.g., spending, sex, substance abuse, reckless driving, binge eating).

I've gone out and gotten drunk a few times just to escape

5. Recurrent suicidal behavior, gestures, or threats, or self-mutilating behavior.

I self harm regularly, burn, cut, scratch. Have had one suicide attempt, but have gone to again plenty of times.

6.Affective instability due to a marked reactivity of mood (e.g., intense episodic dysphoria, irritability, or anxiety usually lasting a few hours and only rarely more than a few days)

YES

.7.Chronic feelings of emptiness.

YES

8.Inappropriate, intense anger or difficulty controlling anger (e.g., frequent displays of temper, constant anger, recurrent physical fights).

Get angry easy, been in P.fights

9.stress-related paranoid ideation or severe dissociative symptoms.

TAKE KNIFES TO BED SOMETIMES SO PARANOID, diagnosed with a dissociative