How to make it day-to-day being majorly depressed and Suicidal?

People in their teens can feel happy and have a good life, you don't have to feel depressed and all the rest.

Your family life sounds dysfunctional, even if your mom does make a point about healthy food, which is a good thing, it sounds like she is controling and that you don't get that she does this because she loves you and her family in the best way she knows how.

Even though you relate better to your dad who seems more kind hearted.

I think that you need to decide if the medications you are on are actually increasing your depression, as they do with some people, and whether you should be on them at all. The meds do not heal anyone,and are known placebos, they can cause brain damage, and rob the body of nutrients, I wonder if you have even been told that? go here to this doctor site and put antidepressants into the search bar there, mercola.com or here drhyman.com

You must not have heard about the method oftherapy that will help resolve the anxiety, emotional pain quickly so that it does not come back, and it is quick and easy to apply. There is a free version of it as well, and some people havre healed themselves with it. emofree.com read the 'basic recipe and resistance' sections. You can go here and ask the therapists your questions and if they know anyone in training or if they wil work out something with you to help you resolve your issues. eftmasters.com,

It sounds like you are being lead in therapy to blame your mom for everything and idealize your dad.

I think that is not helping you or giving her a fair description. She may love you very much , and not know any other way of showing it.

You can even ask your shrink if you will ever heal from all this, and he will say something like no, you have to be on drugs your whole life and stay in therapy for years, and learn how to 'manage your symptoms',a nd that is the way that type of so called therapy works.

It does not have to be that way.

You can heal and your family can heal and it does not have to take years or drugs.

So, I hope you go check out the method I just gave you, talk to them, and make some good decisions and revive your abilities to heal and the hope there is in doing that.

You have nothing to lose to try it.

I don't think your shrink is doing you any good.

I'm very sorry to see what a tough time you are having with life. It's hard when our parents don't both give us the unconditional love we all need to grow into healthy confident adults. It almost sounds as if you'd have to be anorexic to get your mother's love and attention which is all wrong. All parents are supposed to love all of their children the same, after all they chose to have you, you didn't ask to be born.

You have been suffering for so long it must be impossible to remember what it feels like to be ok never mind happy. Did you not get any help when you were still at school like free counselling and even medications? As for meds now you could write to the major manufacturing pharmaceutical companies in your country asking if they have any scheme for helping people who can't afford their drugs. Being a student again may help get you more drugs and counselling. Maybe that's what mum is concerned about?

A church or local charity may have some free counselling, ask around, do a google search. Many private therapist and counsellors will do a limited number of free or for donation sessions to those in need. If you don't ask you won't get. Call local CAB's for details of anything they may know of. Often there are things like self confidence groups, lack of self esteem classes you can join for nothing and meet others with similar difficulties, even form friendships as you support each other and swap ideas.

Next consider doing some voluntary work part time and help others less fortunate than yourself, maybe help someone who doesn't have English as a first language, a person who left school unable to read nor write much, hospital library or radio, even charity shops where you can learn about the retail trade and get a real paying job from in the future. Walk dogs at the dog pound (fresh air and keep fit all at once) feed cats in cattery, feed homeless, give out blankets and hot soup, there are thousands of voluntary opportunities out there and prospective employers will look more favourably on those who made an effort to do something even when there was no need to.

The porn addiction may simply be the only outlet you have right now and working and counselling may very well end the addiction without too much trouble. There is no need to give it all up completely some outlet for sexual stress is helpful and can be relaxing. Who knows you may meet someone special at the classes or voluntary work.

Good luck, keep knocking on doors until you get what you need.

You can feel better about yourself and change your life. Your doctors have given you good advice so I am going to back it up. You can work even though you think you cannot. You are intelligent and well aware of your circumstances so nothing is stopping you but fear. The job can be anything, pumping gas, parking cars, gathering carts in a parking lot, anything that makes you some money. It does not matter if you lose a job like that it is not a career. Maybe you will quit the first ten times but eventually you will find useful occupation in the company of others is a great reducer of depression. Right now you feel helpless and hopeless. I am sure you can see it is a result of acting helpless which you are not. Porn is something you do to give yourself pleasure when you are not getting it other ways in life. I promise if you do get any job even janitorial, you will feel better and wind up getting better and better jobs. Good Luck!

Hey dude, I really would never understand how hard life has been for you, it makes my life seem more fortunate even though I have had my own experiences with depression. All I can say is that what is truely genuine with depression is that sense of hoplessness, dispair, helplessness and sadness. I never knew why hope was such a vital ingredient to life that when we are without it seems to deprieve us of life and drive us to death. For me it didn't make sense either, i had been taught alot about life from a evolutionary and scientific perspective but it never seemed to answer lifes fundamental questions. Yes, it explained to me how the world works via evolution, but still life was still this big unanswered question that made physical and materialistic explanations irrelavent because what matters dewelled on the inside of us something that was genuinely real but very private and distinct from the physical world; like a soul.

I am not trying to advertise my beliefs here, but im sharing with you my cure because I know that everyone in this world is looking for answers. Saddly we are all born alone and left to die. Left to figure things out for ourselves, your fellow neighbour is no more clueless about the meaning of life than you or I. Yet we are all born to survive on this vital ingredient 'hope', a desire for hope. Hope is something we look to and depend upon when all the options and alternatives fail to meet our demands.

For example, if we look at the human life it is full of desires that are compatible to the structure and nature of the physical world; as though the body and world were meant for each other. Thus, creatures (humans) are not born with desires unless satisfaction for those desires exist. A baby feels hunger, well there is such a thing as food; a duckling wants to swim, well there is such a thing as water. Men have sexual desires, well there is such a thing as sex. But, if I find within myself a desire that nothing in this world can satisfy, then the most plausible explanation is that maybe I was made for another world (c.s Lewis).

This is where my discovery became my solution to depression, I no longer suffer from depression because I have realized that hope is a vital ingrediant to every human life because there is nothing here on earth to satisfy us. So I had to make a 50/50 descion, either I live my life for this world, or I adhere to my basic human instincts that tells me that I am just waiting to go home, to a heavenly place where I will find genuinine peace and happiness, a place where I will really feel satisfied. As I weighed my options I realized that If I chose to live for the world in pursuit of only materlistic things like money, sex, drugs, violence, food etc simply enjoying the ride then if God really does exist what would I have gained or lost? If God did in fact exist in the end, I would have lost everything because Heaven did in fact exist yet I chose not to live for heaven but instead I lived as though earth was my home. But if choose to live the christian life, then by the same logic, I would have gained eternal life in heaven; and on earth, well, living a christian life would'nt have made me lose much as most christians today are among the most happiest people. In the end, I would be foolish to live the ungodly life.

If you want to make a change in your life right now, it is very very simple. All you need to do is pray, just talk to Jesus he's always there listening, he's there to help and give you hope. You were designed to depend on God. No man can rule this earth. Talk to him however you want, it says in the bible to 'come as you are' meaning there are no standards, when you give your life to jesus he only accepts the most filthy and sinful people, no one is perfect so we are all the same sinful creaures. When you pray open up your heart and tell him how you feel, ask for help, and confess to him the wrongs you fell you have done in your life because he is gracefull and forgiving of anything you do if simply believe in him.

If you have read this far I encourage you to google John 3:16. Its up to you, take it or leave it.

DO NOT EVEN THINK ABOUT SUICIDE!!!!!!!!!! You still have Yuit whole life a head of you. U don't know what plans God has made for you. remember everything happens for a reason sometimes you have to suffer before something happens to you. All I can say is pray to God to help you read the bible when you can't sleep. If you don't have one then I suggest borrow or buy if you afford it, got to church to listen to Gods words they will bring you good. Turn to God for help in a time like this. Cry out to him he will reach out to help you. I know you might think I talking nonsense but please try it and do not try to to end your life

watch my little pony: friendship is magic. i know it sounds really ******* stupid but seriously this show has gotten me through depression multiple times. i take medication for depression and bipolarism and since watching ponies ive turned into a better person and im even getting engaged. give it a shot and try to become a part of the community. you never know where ponies will bring you!