Please explain 2 me why I feel this way?

Hi Sheena ! You are emotionally involved with both men. "A" pleases you because he trusts you and is open with you about his whole life. "J" angers you because he is not open with you about his life. You feel he just uses you for sex and does not value your input nor sharing his intimate feelings about his life. You desire to satisfy both men more than the other women of their past. The fact that "J" gave his ex a $5000 engagement ring means to you that he valued her more than he values you. This makes you feel that he sees you as less than her. By not telling you about his A kids tells you he does not even value you enough to tell you something as important as his kids achievements, which you feel he would tell just about anyone. You even wonder if he thinks you will be embarrassed that his kids are A students because you are not smart in his eyes. This makes you angry at his family and him, because he/they would look down on you as being less in many ways. Dear I'm not saying that these things are how he definitely feels towards you, but how these things may cause your feelings towards them. Chip

what i don't understand is how you can be mad at him hiding something if your hiding another man