What should I do..............?

I've been struggling with anxiety lately. A little over a month ago I had my first anxiety attack that was caused by a bad reaction I thought I was having to a blood drawing; however my blood was drawn four hours prior to my anxiety attack so nothing in reality was actually happening. I went to an emergency walk-in clinic that day and then to my usual doctor and they both found nothing wrong. They both did mention anxiety as a possible cause. That made me tell my mom about all my worries and how it's so bad that I want drugs to fix it.

I then went back to the doctor for a recap on my blood work and we talked about my possible anxiety and I told him that I didn't think I had any type of disorder or anything and that I've felt great since my anxiety attack because I had learned that worrying can really hurt so I haven't been worrying and I've been very clear headed. I told him that I've had some smaller anxiety attacks since the first one that I was able to control.

My anxiety steadily got worse though. I started feeling sick all the time, I didn't feel like I could function anymore and I overall felt like I couldn't do life anymore. I don't mean that in any suicidal way; I mean I think I just reached my limit. I was exhausted all the time: I couldn't eat, I couldn't sleep, I was just miserable.

I then started a new job right at this time. I hate my new job. It's not a me type of job: it's outside all day in the heat and at the beach (all three of those things I hate). After my first day I wanted to quit. Not because I had a bad first day or because I was too hot; those aren't good reasons, but because I was afraid to go to work the next day because I was terrified of having another anxiety attack. I was at work for eight hours thinning the whole day "now I'm going to have an attack, no, now going to have an attack." I couldn't bear the thought of going back to work and going through that fear again and for the rest of the summer (I have a part time summer job). I also was bothered by my loss of my ability to suck it up. I don't quit things. I have another job that I also hate and have been at for five years (also part time). But I didn't feel like I could suck it up anymore and I wanted to quit.

I told my mom all this and I also decided to tell her about the OCD and depression that I know I've had for years: depression for at least seven years and OCD my entire life, I'm 21. I thought to my self right before I told my mom about the anxiety attributed to my new job that I didn't have to tell her about the OCD and depression but I decided to because I need help for that too and I've needed help for it for a long time and I decided it was finally time for me to say something (but I almost left it out, thank God I didn't and finally said something).

I decided that I was going to call my doctor on Tuesday (this past Tuesday) to tell him about my increased anxiety, OCD and depression. My mom told me to try to get in that day and what luck the morning of Tuesday I had another really bad anxiety attack and went to the doctor anyway. I then told him about my problems.

He gave me some pills to help with the anxiety and he told me that they will also help with the OCD and depression but he also said that he's not the type of doctor to treat OCD and depression effectively nor are these pills a complete treatment for them but they have been known to help with it but that's not what their for by design. He said he could refer me to some type of mental health professional. I have a follow-up visit soon where I will take a referral. My doctor also gave me a note to excuse me from work for a week so I could see how the pills effect me and regather myself.

The problem now is that I'm thinking of quiting my new job. I have another one but their aren't a lot of hours in the summer but I still have one other. My new job is very simple, all I do is check beach parking stickers and help people move their sailboats if needed. However, I really hate; as I said I hate the heat, I hate being outside, I hate the beach. etc. This past week when I've gone outside I've had two anxiety attacks triggered by the heat, I then took my pill to calm me down and it worked but they still happened and that's a problem. I don't think it was just the heat itself that triggered them, I think it was that I thought it was really hot and then I thought this is what it will be like for me all day at work and then that caused the anxiety. I still can't stand the thought of being at work all day either popping pills or thinking when my next attack will come.