Is it wrong to wish I was gay?

I am just so sick of dealing with women. I don't understand them, I can't read them, and I can't pick up on the body language they so enjoy communicating with. growing up I had a horrible relationship with my mother, who ended up dying of drug use. Of all of my friends, my gay friends seem the most happy. Whenever I see gay people they always seem happy, while I am always miserable. I am not attracted to men, but sometimes I wish I was. It would be great if my lover could be someone who understands me, instead of just some dumb girl that is only interested in what you can provide for her.