I'm finding it hard to accept that my grandad is dying from cancer?

My Nana past away in May she was alot older 96 but I found it hard to except because for her age until a few months before she appeared to be really good health wise and then suddenly went down hill. She was taken into hospital and then transferred to a smaller hospital for recovery or so we thought but within days we were told she was really not well and likely to pass away. At the time I was frustrated and angry as felt they weren't trying to help her enough. She was refusing food and I just thought of they could make her eat she would gain strength and recover. I'm not sure exactly what she died of but before she went into hospital she was at time struggling to swallow and chew food at times, also she kept falling asleep more then is normal even for someone of that age, she would be drinking a cup and just nod off for example but then days/weeks where she was better. Death is not easy to except especially when you know someone is dieing and can see it happening. Try and keep yourself together but crying and emotion is normal within reason And in time probably a while after it happens it will become easier and don't be afraid to ask for help if you feel you can't cope.

a few days before my 16th birthday my mum and sister had gone out for an hour, there was just me and my dad in the house, i asked him if he wanted to watch a dvd with me, but he said no, he was in the kitchen... standing at the bench looking out of the window, i have no idea why? so i went off upstairs to watch my dvd alone. about an hour into my dvd i heard a thud downstairs, as i was walking down the stairs to see what the noise was my mum came in the front door, she screamed, i looked over to where she was looking and my dad was lying on the floor, he was an odd colour, grey... his lips were purple. his eyes were open. i knew he was dead. my mum called an ambulance, they tried to bring him back, they took him in an ambulance and took me and my mum in another one. they took us to a little room in the A&E department and made us a cup of tea and sat us down. the lady told us they could not resuscitate him. i didnt believe it. he was fine an hour before that, he was only in his 50's.. there was no way this was happening. she took us to see him. he felt so cold when i held his hand. he was laying there on this trolly with a hospital gown on and a blanket over his legs. it was awful. we stayed for a while then some police took us home (police had to be called because it was a sudden death in the home) i felt so empty when i got home, realizing that this was forever, i wouldnt wake up in the morning and it would all be ok, he was never coming back. i couldnt accept it, none of my family could. its been 10years and i still think of it everyday, i still remember the clothes he was wearing, how his car was on the driveway and everybody came with flowers and laid them on his car. i dont think i ever will get over it. you have time now to say goodbye to your grandad, you need to spend time with him while you can

Everyone would find this hard, but it's life. Some people who deserve to live die , while others continue to live. You have to be strong these days, show your grandad your love and respect and hope for the best. Good luck.

I am sorry to hear about your grandad and am sending you a big hug. What you are feeling is to be expected. Spend as much time with your grandad as you can. You will be going through lots of emotions but just go with what you are feeling, don't fight it. And shower your grandad with love: it will help you later.