where are you when I needed most of your genuine concern to helping me in times of my downfall moments?

Do you really care for what is the truth and the lies that you caused for damaging myself in public places? are you not satisfied for doing so? what else I have to giving up for myself? just to satisfy your aim? Please give me peace of mind. I am an advocate for real PEACE .and for those still unsatisfied person who one way or the other having great participation for your hidden agenda to help or not to help please , Stop this gaming because this is not the life I wanting to have I hate gambling. and for those in participation for insulting and humiliating me in public places please.I will not allow myself to snatch your relation with these guys who showed interest in me I almost found the guy who loved me and accepted me for who I am. thanks.