HELP!!! don't know where to turn?

Listen hurting yourself isn't an option right now, because it ain't gonna solve anything. Depression sucks and so do suicidal thoughts. but from what i can read you don;t have a choice, and i can tell you that at the moment and i guess your age you're parents will be controlling you and keep telling you what to do and make decissions concerning your life. At this point the best to do is deal with it. You just need to wait for a few years and make plans for your future and whta you want to do, once you're 18 go and start a life away from both your parents. Trust me!!

Self harming only makes things worse. If you really want to solve anything you need to talk to somebody. Suicidal thoughts and the fact that you wrote about actions as well is quite distressing. You need professional help to get through this :) hope this helps. Good luck :)

I like cream and cake when it rains, because it has a warm feeling in your through. Try custard when it is warm. Zac who knows Abby in Scotland. Cream is great you should try brother on the beach girl sticks her tongue out. What about rain cake like Sophie in your head. Canada films what you see in 2006.