Im depressed now...?

So... My mom let me go too football practice for one week then there was a break and now were starting back again so I go up to my mom because I stabbed my two the day before and ask I dont want to go to practice tomorrow shes says no because by 25th if im not done they will held me back.

I have online school to make up bad grades she let me go and now shes wants me to stay home again.

My coach is disappointed because im not as strong as the others. were running out of line and im next up but im that strong because shed held me back this happened last year and everybody is still stronger than me. What will happen if I dont do virtual i get held back If I do I mess practice and miss the whole season again I dont want this to happen if it does. I just wont show my face to anyone i failed. Please im sad and im stuck between crossroads just help I dont know what to do Is it football or Online School please help me...

I starting to have 2nd thoughts about why im here. I want to quit but I cant

Its my motto I have been staying with it for 4 years. I want to make my own decisions but I cant. She says she does not care and she wont let me go I graduate 3 years from now and my dad says im going to the navy if I dont get my grades out. PLEASE I BEG YOU HELP ME