I feel "darkest" in the mornings when I wake before the alarm. Am I alone?

I'm very happy to hear that your seeing a psychiatrist. Bravo! You know how many people we have to beg to get professional help? You are a Good Man. Yes, the sudden loss of a partner does leave a tremendous void for a period. No your Life is not over. Your confidence does need rebuilding. In a relationship, we get "comfortable" & "relaxed" & kinda lazy. But, we grow & change, daily & and the other person, changes & grows, daily. We get bored, too relaxed, too comfortable. Then, sometimes, death, takes one away and one must start over. Scary going back into the world, looking for someone new. Here's a good website you might try: ourtime.com for people 50 and older. Join groups. Ask about group therapy where you can meet people and have supportive friends. Who knows.

Be Thankful for the person who, now, is in your past. Thankful for the Goodness, they showed and shared.

What did you learn from this person that you can carry on in your life. Write them a letter of all the wonderful feelings you experienced with them. What you cherished about them. And, a closing. Put, the letter away.

I'm 76 yrs. old and my partner died last year. We had many good year together. But, at 76, I will go out and look for a new partner to share the remaining years. Best Wishes & Good Luck

My father is 54 ...my parents divorced 6 years ago and my father married again after two years but that marriage end up in divorce too...as you experienced its much harder in your age to think of a new love and so it was the same for my father he thought he hasn't any chance in his life and it was much harder for me to see my fathers crying but now he is ok he don't even remember the pain he has ...and because of that im telling you this pain will gone and someday you will accept that you didn't want that relationship too(cause if it was good it wasn't ending) ... Just don't lose your communication and let yourself to move on

Thank you for your insight and your kind words.

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