I feel completely apathetic...what do I do?

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I have no drive to do anything, be anything, connect with anybody or live really.I have moments where I WANT to be more social and go hangout with people but I don t do it because in the long run I don t care. Even when I am hanging out with people, I always realize that I just don t care and would rather be alone. I have become completely apathetic to living life and I have no clue in hell what to do anymore. I was going to college but I dropped out because I just didn t care. I couldnt stand college because there is really nothing that I want to do or become. It is really hard to live this way and I feel like I just exist. I used to have some aspirations but in the back of my mind I knew that this feeling of deep apathy was still there. I feel a complete withdrawal and disconnect from life and everybody around me. I don t care about life anymore. I don t really want to be here or having anything to do with it. I find people shallow, and overall boring.Nothing pleases me.This world doesnt please me. I have been told that it is depression and have talked to numerous therapists. I call bs. No meds work, no talking helps. I am completely desperate and have no idea what to do anymore. i am very close to ending my own life... and I honestly probably wouldn t even care what I had to face on the otherside. I feel alone in this..but I know that there are more people out there like this... What DO i DO? Where do I even begin to start living a life that I don t want to live anyways?

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I don't have any interest in anything.My parents say that it is WRONG the way that I live my life. All I wanna do is sleep all of the time and I hate doing anything else.I really just want to curl up in a ball and not wake up so I don't have to deal with the stigma of depression surrounding me and the way that nobody gets it. I hate that my parents think that it is all something that I can change with good diet and exercise. NO, this is a feeling...DEEP deep deep down inside off me.I'm hopeless.

leeman27534 · Accepted Answer

honestly i feel the same way. i'm so apathetic, i don't even often want to do things i enjoy, if i could sleep for eternity i would. hell, i keep trying to kill myself, it keeps not working. i don't bathe, cause i don't care if im dirty or smell, and getting into the shower is a painin the ***. i don't clean my room, cause it doesn't bother me if its dirty, i could not care less. i'm smart, but i'm not going to college cause i'd actually have to try most likely, i'd have to deal with people, and there's no career i want badly enough to incur ten years worth of debt. i don't want relationships for the most part, not friendships, romance, nothing, cause dealing with people is a pain in the ***. pretty much anything that could end in a negative, i avoid. simply because i don't really want it, and even if i tried, it might end badly, so why bother? i agree 100%. i'd suggest getting to a doc, get started on antidepression,,talk about getting over the apathy, and in five years, if it still don't work, kill yourself. i say this usually to depressives but honestly, being awake and aware is miserable for me, i dunno if its because fo depression or apathy, or just both, and it sounds liek ou feel similar to me, so dying sounds good to me, means i won't have to deal with anymore bullshit. i even hate having to eat, drink, piss, ****, see, breathe, hear, feel... sorry, aside from the counselors, i got no advice, as its something im stuck in too. i honestly don't want to get better though, i just don't want to be, but attempting suicide is a pain in the ***, and i just keep failing anyway, so why other trying. i swear, its like something is keeping me alive, i've failed so much.

Curious Cat! · Answer

Actually it happens to me too sometimes. Once my cousin died, i loved her but i didn't care. And many such moments! I thought i m turning into stone. But it's temporary so don't think of it.
Thinking about such stuff makes you feel more upset.
Better watch some nice series, funny videos, do things that interest you... And don't care about your feelings while doing so. Playing with children is also enjoyable that you might actually start thinking you are living up again you know! :)

Abhijit · Answer

It happens, life is full of ups and downs. There are times when you feel detached. It is just passing phase.

Anonymous · Answer

You have to go deep deep inside where this feeling lies.. the thing is, Where feelings are?

Ben · Answer

Take a walk.

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