How can I forgive myself for my past actions?

Instead of crying for your bad past you may search the ways for redemption that is to rectify the mistakes of your past in the present. You help the people who are in similar circumstances. There is a way when there is a will.

Human beings are ruled by spirits but humans must learn to control and rule the spirits. Spirits possess people according to the mental state of the human beings and keep them in the same state until they are rejected and replaced by another. This is an all time phenomena occurring in all humans. Human beings are always under the influence of spirits. Certain situations and circumstances causes the possession of certain type of spirits. Often thinking and talking about bad subjects or bad imaginations even for fun can take serious turns on one who think and talk. All spirits (good and bad) have the dominating character. They can take you to the extent of sacrifice or suicide.

All of your activities, talks and even thoughts determine what kind of spirits you will have for your life. Only these spirits can create a good opportunity to get a job and all favorable things which you need to your life. Generally spirits determine the destiny of the human beings from their daily activities, talks and thoughts too. All knowledge, skills, emotions, feelings, interests and everything are spirits. Even thoughts are not your own. When you want to take a decision on a subject, one after another they think and you just listen and choose or reject the ideas which they transmit to your mind through your brain in the form of thoughts. A human being during his/her lifetime is living with many spirits which have joined one by one since birth. Human beings are just unprogrammed robots made of flesh, bones, tissues etc., by birth and toys of the spirits for their games.

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It depends on how bad your actions were. If minor, then from now on try to be a good person, do good things and in the future when looking back you will find these good deeds as a compensation for the bad past you are suffering from. If the people you wronged are still alive, find them and show them how sorry you are. They will most probably forgive you and this will give you a good feeling.

I myself in my childhood (unfortunately) have badly killed a few animals and now quite often think about it and really get mentally tortured. Just I don't know how to redeem. I desperately wish I could meet those animals, kiss their limbs and say sorry. An impossible thing!

You seem like quite a good person to me.... you have a social conscience - which is rare and a WONDERFUL quality- that many, many people do not .. and it is real and genuine - not pretentious like the majority of those who like to feel they do... It does not sound like you did anything wrong - or overstepped boundaries -- but each person has their own definition of right and wrong .. so it must be that YOU feel you did the wrong thing... Sexual boundaries are very hard to identify at any age... You cannot go backwards in time - but you can understand that what happened then is not something that YOU are comfortable with in your life and learn from it ... It is nice and refreshing that you care about other people and their feelings -- but you also need to care about your own & forgive yourself -- and move on a little smarter because now you know what works for you & what doesn't... I hope you meet someone like you who had feelings and is obviously not selfish ... and you will!!!!! 'Good luck & learn the lesson that you need to learn -- then don't keep looking back - but look ahead - stonger & wiser!!!!

Doubt your going to read this but w/e.

Reality is that if you did make mistakes small or large those memorys are there to remind you not to do it again. Honesty imo you deserve to feel bad for the bad things you have done but that misery does not have to last a lifetime.

If you want to feel better then stop indulging in self pitty, pick yourself up and move forward. Whatever you believe 'God/sprits/Cookie monster' remember that you have potential and although you hadn't been a good person in the past you can use that as motivation to make up for those mistakes by being a better person.

Help out people, respect them and do nice things outside of your own interest. It feels great to feel valued and not dispised. That regret and guilt you feel prove your a good person and show how much better your capable of being. Good luck.

Well to me it doesn't sound like you have really faced your past. And hardly accept it. I understand having things in your past you just don't want to think about or talk about or admit it to yourself. And I also understand the feeling of knowing you hurt/ broke the hearts of people. But from my experience what I first did was instead of trying to go to sleep when I was laying in bed I thought back. Even though I didn't want to and some of the stuff I thought about made me scringe I still went through with it. What happened in the past happened and there is no reason to avoid it because what's done is done. So I carefully tried to vividly retrace everything that happened and what did and ect. I think I thought about it the next night too. And then I managed to tell my friends the best I could. Telling someone helps make it seem less if a huge deal because it's over, the end. Idk how to exactly describe it. And now I can look back and some of my past and what I've done with my headup hi

It's alright. No, that's a lie and you know that. For it to be alright, you must change your mindset. And to change your mindset you must change how you feel about the situation. To do that you must modify reality into preference. Think it over but when it's overwhelming, just don't contemplate on it anymore. Make it seem as if it were some small thing. If that isn't possible then the situation requires a stimulus. For one day endeavour to do your best in that situation, when you have accomplished it, say to yourself: Wow. Look at the progress I have made. I certainly know I'm changing. Just one step at a time.

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There should be proper coordination between your lower self and higher self. Then only it is possible.

There are two self's; the higher and the lower self. The higher self is human spirit clothed with soul, made in the form of God. The lower self, the carnal self, the body of desires, is a reflection of the higher self, distorted by the murky ether of the flesh. The lower self is an illusion, and will pass away; the higher self is God in man, and will not pass away. The higher self is the embodiment of truth. The higher self is justice, mercy, love and right; the lower self is what the higher self is not. The lower self breeds hatred, slander, lewdness, murders, theft, and everything that harms; the higher self is mother of the virtues and the harmonies of life.

Just learn from the mistake. Don’t forget about it. You have a bad memory. Having a bad memory is painful. But you need bad memories to remind yourself to not make a mistake again. Accept and forgive yourself you have changed and grow up.

Take some time to grow and be that potentially awesome person from now on. It takes strength to display skill. Stop selling your self on being able before you are. OR else you appear like labron james justifying his attrocious traveling.

You might be a little too hard on yourself there. We all sin. If you confess your sins, God is faithful and just and will forgive you your sins and purify you from all unrighteousness. Tell God that you need Him and want to get to know Him. Be sincere about it. He will help you