Skylar

This is more of a rant. 

I do a lot of things for my boyfriend. I post him, buy him gifts, spend money on food, etc and sometimes I feel like I am not appreciated enough. A little post or picture of me is enough but his social media is all about him and the things he likes. I've told him that I would like it if he posted me a bit more and he's acknowledged that but nothing changes. He's very focused on photography now and he told me he'd give me his old camera (It meant a lot as he rarely buys me gifts) but now he's planning on selling it to get more money for more photography stuff. I really wanted the camera because I've always enjoyed photography but never got the chance to fully achieve it. I had so many plans of shooting my family but now it's gone. I am okay with it obviously but It does hurt to know he'd rather earn money than consider me. I feel as if he doesn't realize my effort and how much I do for him. I've paid for some of his photography accessories and even disregarded all the times he said he'd pay me but never did. (The only thing he spends money on for me is food) but other than that its me with the gifts, surprises, etc. I understand that when you genuinely support and love someone you don't expect anything back however it feels like he's gotten too comfortable in this relationship. Maybe it's just me still stuck in the honeymoon phase but I would like it if he considered me more instead of only thinking of himself sometimes. 

I am very forgetful and I also have a lot of pictures involving family, friends, and myself on all social media platforms. When my ex and I broke up, I made sure to delete all remaining comments, pictures, and posts about him. I've been dating someone new (my current bf) for 10 months now and he manages to dig deep into my profiles and find traces of my ex I forgot to delete. (back then, social media was very big for my ex and I). Sometimes there would be a comment I forgot, or a picture, etc. Thing is, Im all about my current boyfriend now. When he brought it up to me, I apologized and told him I'd take care of it. However, it seems to be an occurring issue and it isnt like I didnt want to delete the pictures. 

I've made new profiles just to make sure everything was deleted. But still my current boyfriend manages to dig deep into them enough to find something. Yesterday, he dug through my snapchat that I've had for 4 years now (all my family memories, highschool, etc. are on there). Thats the reason I kept it, for memories. And he found some pictures of my ex, he got mad at me for it and assumed I wasnt over him since it wasnt the first time. But I always assure him it's because I end up having over a million photos and I obviously cant get to them all. I didnt get mad at him nor did I try to make an excuse but he insists me "forgetting" has become an excuse. He tried to leave me over it saying I "never" changed and I never forgot about my ex. 

Please help. I am over my ex

I am going to be a junior in high school and usually around this time students would already have a clear image of the college they want to go to and what they want to major in. But I don't have anything in mind at all. I don't know which college to go to and what to major in. Health? Art? Mathematics? Science? My parents pressure me sometimes and tell me to really think about the things I want to do. They don't want me to waste my first few years of college experimenting and wasting the money going to classes that won't benefit me. I've thought about this so much that it makes me think that college isn't even worth studying so hard for. I mean, people live without going to college right? Not to mention I don't even know if I can get into a great college or not since I am not involved with any sports or clubs at my school. I have thought about a few things I could major in though, Psychology. I've always liked the idea of learning about the human mind and why people do things. So I came to the conclusion of being a therapist. I've talked to my parents about it and they say it's an OK job but they want me to make enough money that will keep me financially stable, something like a nurse or doctor. Even though I have that in mind, I am also interested in art and drawing. Sometimes even game developing and writing. I have so many interests but they all will earn me very little money. Should I just focus on my ACTs and grades for now then sort out my life later? This is scary.

My bestfriend and I have been friends for 4 years.We've had arguments but we've always put them aside for our friendship.During freshmen year I got into a relationship and began to forget about her and I admit it,i did. but I didn't notice it until she decided to cut me off without telling me.I was so hurt because she started talking bad about me behind my back to others.Eventually we worked it out and remained close until sophomore year.I had lost my virginity then and did not tell her because I thought she would find it disgusting and hate me (she hates talking about sex).So I told my other friends instead, ones who also had sex before.My bestfriend soon found out about it and confronted me.We talked it out and like always, decided to leave it behind. But after that incident I felt like she replaced me with some people she just met this year.Gradually she texted me less and I became the last person to know about things. When I forgot about her,Istill talked to her as usual and completely divided my attention afterwards.Imade an effort to change because she was my bestfriend. But I feel as if she holds a grudge against me for not telling her and has decided to secretly end our friendship. Every time I see her with her new "best friends" I can't help but feel a little jealous because for 4 years I was the person who knew her the most.I've decided to move on and accept the fact that friends come and go but it hurts. It really does.This is killing me.How do I move on from this?

I have this group of friends and we all love each other so so much. We are practically BEST FRIENDS. There are Two guys in the group and 3 girls. Lets call One guy A, And the other B. Now for the girls, We'll call Girl one C Girl two D (I am also a girl so i dont have to mention myself). we had no problems UNTIL this year.We are all becoming freshmen, entering that high school life.One day, C just kept getting mad at us for no reason which really pissed me, D and B off. C would get mad at us for doing the most simplest things. For example, Us pranking each other. We always do that and she was always okay with it but now she just flips out. And A is always on her side.C and A are like friends with penalties because they are together ALL the time and really really good friends. They're practically on a whole new level than Us. But one day, we just couldnt stand C anymore because she would go on saying she listens to us but we never listen to her.She compared us to A,Telling us that A understands her most and that A has never ever made her mad her whole life. At the point, B and D decided to leave. I also decided to leave but inside something was telling me this would work out. Fortunately it didnt and now we've broken up. B, D and i are in our own groups While C and A have cut ties with us. I've tried explaining to both sides but it just wont work out. So, maybe it's best to forget C and A. My question is, Was it the right thing? Or should i have worked it out?

I am 14 years old and going to freshmen. My parents are always letting me down on things. They bring my hopes up and then crush them down. They male promises and never fullfill them. I've just had enough. The first time, they said I'd go to osseo junior high, That was when i was 13. But then they said.I couldnt. Which completely broken me because i was so excite and happy I could die. The second time, I wanted to hold a party for my 14th birthday and invite my group of friends.but, that never happened. All because i had a friend who was black. I felt ashamed. The third time, which I'm now 14, i begged to go to park center high. They agreed.But now that its August. They tell me I can't. I had my hopes up super high. But they all crushed down the moment my parents lied to me. I dont know what to do anymore. I just feel so let down and everything. If I try to speak my opinion and feelings, I get yelled at, and what they call "disciplined". I can't even share my thoughts to my parents anymore. Why can't they realize that they've crushed my hopes so mmuch to the point where I can't even trust them anymore? What should I do? This may seem childish, but, I can't stand their lies and everything. Why do adults always abuse their powers? My parents are so unreasonable. I really can't wait until the day I move out.

I was scrolling through YouTube until I saw a video from "ProudtobeAsian" saying that cosplaying is only for Asians not westerners.They included that westerners are racist for cosplaying as anime characters instead of their own cartoons in which is disrespecting us asians. One question, HOW exactly? Wtf is the meaning "racist" nowadays? just saying "I like the color black" is considered racist when it isn't. So how is cosplaying as something racist towards Asians? I am proud to be Asian but I am NOT going to be proud if my own race is going around telling westerners that cosplay is only for asians. I believe that cosplay is for everyone and anyone who loves anime regardless of their race. Another thing that bothers me is how they judge westerners' cosplay. "As you can see,Her hair is much darker than our character's and her outfit is completely horrible"Who cares?They are showing their love for anime and it isn't appreciated. I want to be able to cosplay in the future but the thing I'm afraid of is judgemental people like Proudtobeasians. And the thing that absolutely pisses me off, is that people actually agree. My head was about to explode the second I read those comments and watched the video.There is NO rule stating that cosplaying is only for Asians and that westerners cannot cosplay. I'm sorry if it looks like I'm making a big deal out of this but I am an anime fan and I honestly disagree. You guys can comment your opinions whether it's good or bad, I will understand.

Sometimes when I'm around people, I tend to feel how they feel. I don't know if its just me but sometimes I feel as if I can read their minds or their reactions. For example, when I send a text, I feel like I would know their reaction to it. And when I'm talking to someone, I feel like I could feel how they think about it just by standing next to them. If someone is mad, Sometimes I can guess the reason. Is this considered a 6th sense ? Or is it just a common understanding of things? Meaning that I understand people's feelings or hatred of some sort?

I made a lot of bad decisions that I regret making and I really have low self esteem. I always think everything:s my fault and apologize. Anyways, I have a group of friends and we all hang out. I'm a girl by the way, and I dated one of my friends in the group. She was a girl. She asked me out and I was surprised because she was bisexual and I wasn't so there weren't any chances but I was curious so i agreed. But we broke up because I left her to date another guy.I felt so guilty and sad that I begged to leave the group because I didn't deserve to be in it. But they wouldn't let me out. So I continued to stay. But ever since that incident, I feel as If they hate me. When they talk about things I don't know of and I try to include myself by just laughing along if I don't know what's going on. For example, they all laugh so I would laugh also but they give me look "really?" And I feel excluded. I'm always pushed out. So one day I couldn't stand it any longer and decided to speak up. Once I did, they asked if I was seeking attention and that if I wanted them to feel bad. I replied saying I just wanted them to know and that it wasn't my intention to make them feel bad. But they continued on saying it seemed like I was pointing them out and seeking for their attention. So I apologized because I asked to forget everything. I know for a fact they hate me. Like i said, I did a lot of bad stuff. Do they hate me? Should I leave ? I honestly cried so hard because no one understands me.

I've done a lot of stuff in the past. Such as breaking people's hearts, Not standing up for my best friend when she needed it most, Almost cheating, Liking other people during a relationship, Harsh break ups, Bad friendship endings, Bad decisions, there's just so much to list and I often hate on myself. My friends say "let it go and be happy" but I always ask, "How can I be happy knowing that i trampled on people's feelings, and broken hearts?" Some say I'm over thinking it but that's not the reason. I've cone to admit my mistakes and accept it. But now that I have, I can't move on. When I try, its haunts me and brings me back. Its like a dark shadow pulling me behind every time I try to reach for the light. Sometimes I ask myself,"Did I do something horribly wrong in my past life to deserve what I did in this life?" I even sometimes over think and start crying because of it.When ever someone mentions something about me about what I did in the past, I just get so worked up about it to the point where I cry. I'm just so buried in my sins and wrong doings that I can't even help myself up anymore. I want to go to a therapist but there's no chance I can go at all. This isn't something I can share with my parents or anyone else at all. because when I do share it with my friends they all say the same things and it just doesn't help. Someone please help me. I just feel so burdened. Right now I'm at the verge of crying ..

There is this girl at my school and she's bi. She likes me but shes dating another girl in the other class. at first i hesitated if i liked her or not but then it became clear i didnt like her and it was just my hormones because before she started dating, she would hug me and do things to me in which what couples would do so she had a thing for me. i guess it just wasnt normal for me because im always so used to a guy doing that and not a girl. anyways, i dont have any romantic feelings towards her at all nor do i get jealous when she is around her girlfriend.I have a boyfriend myself and so i dont feel anything towards her. but there were a few times where me and her almost kissed and i kept thinking "What if we did kiss?" and since then i've been having thoughts about her and wondering what it would be like to kiss a girl and makeout with one. i remember going into the bathroom only to find her making out with her girlfriend, and after seeing that i've wondered "i would like to do that too.." so.. am i bi-curious? or bi? because i HAVE dated a girl before, but that was online and i wanted to experiment.. I also have NEVER done anything with a girl before either..

So, i remember watching an anime where there is this girl who is really really shy but has a loud voice. she transfers (think) to a school where there are two drama clubs. The first drama club doesnt make it and is trying to find people to join while the second has 5 star rates. The first drama club president wants the main girl to join because she has a loud voice but the main girl denies because she has stage fright and is very shy. After countless approaches, the main girl finally agrees and they perform their first play. but now the second drama club is trying to take their fame back from the first drama club. does anyone know the title of this anime? this is all i remember from the anime because i havent finished watching it. and its been 3 YEARS!

long story short, i left my phone on the benches at school so my friend took it home and said she would give it to be after spring break (it was on a friday) so i believed her. the whole weekend i was excited only to find out that she "lost" it today. this isnt the first time she has lost my stuff either. what do i do ? should i make her pay the price for it ? she asked me for the password the day she took it home and said she wanted to look at the photos , so i trusted her and gave her the pattern code. i cannot locate it since i dont have a tracking app installed. it also isnt connected to the internet either. Please help me. I am very disappointed in my friend and my parents are very disappointed in me. probably the last time i'll ever get a phone.

I Think I'm Bisexual?

I have Always Been Straight . And Recently this year there was a new student in the school . We're in Middle school And She Would be Soo freakin hawt as a boy too XD Anyways Back to the story . She is very very flirty to girls and hugs them all the time including me .She doesn't show much to the boys and Also Acts Like a Boy sometimes . There were rumors saying she's Bisexual but I didn't believe it . But Then her hugging and holding hands and stuff that only couples do together arelook like me its true . and It Is . She Would Hug me from behind and I would always get a chill down my spine . Sometimes She Hugs Me Directly and I Feel Really Hot . She even One time Blew Very Gently on My Neck and That Really Really Made me feel weird . When I heard she liked my friend , I Don't Know But I just got this sad Feelings and Broken Feeling . And I NEVER felt this way towards a girl . Today I Also Heard She Kissed My Other friend on the cheek and that made me heart burn .a few classes later , my friend zapped me to hug her and ask her to marry me (Of course its fake) and when I called her name and went up to her , She was Hugging the Girl She Liked (My Other Friend) and I Just Immediately Turned around and said "Ugh Sorry .." And Left . I Had a Sad Expression and My Friend Asked me , "Are you jealous ?" And I Was Like "WHAT ?! Why Would I Be ?! I'm Not Bi !" So She Replied , "You Look Like You Are " .

So My Question is , Am I Bisexual? Or just experiencing ?

Me and This Guy Met eachother on instagram . He Is 17 and im 13 , a 4 years age difference . We Started talking on Kik and he's really different from other guys . He takes things slow and doesnt go too fast . we didnt even know eachother's facebook. we help eachother out alot . he helps me with my boyfriend problems and i help him with his girlfriend problems and we've been talking for about 8 months now and the past 8 months i felt nothing for him . But then one day i said "I Wonder how your voice sounds like " and so we exchanged skype names . we started skyping and got closer to eachother I Started to like him since then and i started asking for his facebook . we got in touch through facebook , Kik , instagram , and Skype . i even Started having dreams about him . he even had dreams about me too . we would call each other once or twice a day and 6 hours each call talking about everyday things . Is Liking someone older than you by 4 years wrong ? by the way , he Lives all the way in virginia and i live in minnesota so he cant do anything to me . he is also graduating next year while next year im going to be an 8th grader . Is it wrong ? is the age gap too much ?

A little info on myself , i am just 13 years old ._.

It Started Out As Me And My Brother Doing An Experiment . He Was Testing Mold While I Was Testing Human Cells . I Left The room and When I Came Back My Brother Had Combined Our Experiments together CREATING AN ALIEN BABY .

You Know, How a Premature baby Looks Like In Its Jacket In a Mothers Belly ._. Anyways I was horrified and Without even thinking I grabbed it and was about to throw it outside. I came to my senses thinking that this baby was like any other baby and If I threw it out it would die. I ran to my dad panicking and crying . my dad said to calm down and told me it was all a dream . I was confused because it seemed actually real I mean extremely REAL. He counted backwards from 10-1 and by the time he got to 1 I instantly woke up from that dream. SOME ONE PLEASE HELP WHAT DOES THIS MEAN ??

So I Have a Bestfriend. Lets Call Her Red.(For Safety) We've been friends for 3 years and this year, she TOTALLY CHANGED. She Started Meeting Guys On Instagram and dating people that she only met in 1 day. Her style changed, the way she talked, and Even how she acts! One Time Me and My Other friend, Lets Call her White. Were Talking about how to get over guys and all of a sudden "Red" Jumped In And was Like "***** No. Last Time You Did This and That...." And BLah Blah Blah. Im Just Like HELLO YOU'RE NOT IN THIS CONVERSATION. Then White Yelled At Her And Said "***** Shut Up We arent even talking to you" Then there was awkward silence. i Didnt know what to say because she DESERVED IT ANYWAYS. So A Couple Months Later We Kinda Lost Touch but We Became Close again. Then One Day She Just Totally Ignored Me and Hung Out with my Ex-Bestfriend From My Old School Who Ditched Me for New Friends. From That Point on They Became So Called "Besties" Like Everyone In 7th Grade Hates "Red" She be Showing off her knew phone and braggin on who she met on instagram and talked to who in Kik. And Well, My Question is... How do i Beat her IN Looks? She's Pretty and Has Swagg and Stuff. Her Instagram pictures always get like 65+ Likes. And mines, Well..... 21 Likes. I Know Right BAD. She Totally Beat me in Looks,Talking,and Guys. She has like 7-10 so called "HOT" Guys on Her phone. Now Please Help....?

I Dont know why i had this dream but....

Yesterday I Had a Weird Dream....

I Went over to one of my cousins house.Her friend was over her house and she was a Vampire. My cousin said she was going to go shopping so she will come home late. After she left Her friend started crying. i asked "Why are you crying?" She told me that she didnt want to be lonely so she wanted me to become one of them. She bit me on the neck with out sucking my blood so i could become a vampire too.I Was screaming for HELP but No one Helped Me. Within 10 minutes i Grew Fangs and i Felt lighter and Faster. She became a MOnster because she was blood thirsty. SHe drank the Blood outta her Brothers and Sisters i was LIke "THOSE ARE YOUR SIBLINGS!" BUt she justed looked at me and said "When VAmpire bite people, The people dont die, They just pass out". BUt Then she Grew larger and larger so i threw her downstairs and Locked her up. i Figured she must be hungry so i went to the VAmpire store to Buy Fresh HUman Blood. i Bought 5 GALLONS OF BLOOD. I KNow right, WTF. Anyways, I gave it to her and she was drinking it like crazy. BUt since i was a VAmpire too, I Got blood thirsty...and so...I DRANK A WHOLE GALLON OF BLOOD WITH HER.

I KNow its weird... Some one PLease Explain...Does this Mean Anything? Or am i just thinking too much?

Im making a Manga and i Dont know What would be a good title! Here's all the Facts;

Genre: Romance,Drama

Summary: Meiki SagaTashi is an Average 13 year old girl. Her mother Signs Her up for Ballet School at Hagashi Middle School. Meiki Is placed into The ballet Section Close to the Painting Section. Kyomi Fuura Also a 13 year old, Is the Best Ballerina Dancer in the whole class. But when Meiki MAkes an Impression on the Ballet Teacher, Kyomi Cannot Let Meiki Take the spot Light. Kyomi Tries everyway to make Meiki Fail her dance lesson but ends up passing every lesson. Meiki also becomes a very good friend of Kashino Jun. The very Artistic Boy that Kyomi has a crush on. Soon there will be a Ballet competition, Kyomi and Meiki Enter the Competition to show who's the star of the Show.