Turned 40 a few months ago- is this a sign of midlife crisis?

Although your parents were not good to you, the way you lived does not matter now. At age 40, it is a good time as any to move forward and think positively. So you're in-between jobs and you don't have the money you wish you did, but who does?? Most of us go through job changes and financial worries. And, if you compare yourself to one of the very few who happen to be an actor, who makes good money, and had a good upbringing, you won't get the life you want. There is NO way you will move forward if you continue to compare yourself to this person. And remember, just like we all go through life changes and wish we had more cash, actors don't always have the life you think they do. Sure they make a lot of money and they're famous, but at what cost? Would you want to be followed around by photographers? Have articles in the tabloids? Go through a couple million fast and then find you're broke?? Because that's the reality of it. Even those who have good childhoods.

If you can realize that all those put-downs and beatings, as well as those wishing you were dead are not part of your life anymore, then you can move forward. For reasons we will never understand, people are abusive. Perhaps they used to be abused, or they just are miserable people, or both. Your life has not been insignificant; you are meant to be here as we all are, and you can do something great. Just don't think you have to achieve something that someone else has. Do what makes you happy, and not what you think will make others happy. Don't let your parents run your life anymore,, move out of the past, and DON'T think for one minute that anything they ever said was true, because it isn't. You're a better person you deserve a good life, and now you need to make that happen.