I'm super suicidal?

I'm 18 male. I won't give a huge description,but all symptoms below I mention are EXTREME...

illness causing 24/7 fatigue,dizziness,migraine,brain fog,pressure in head,eyes sensitive to light,dry eyes,reynauds,knee issues,joint issues,future back problems(partial arthritis apparently from MRI),eating issues,depression,anxiety,depersonalization(things feel sooooo off like a dream and sometimes I can barely tell I'm in reality),sensitivity to comfort(this effects my sleep a lot too since I can't handle how clothes or my blanket feel and I have to keep adjusting. During day not as bad. Always have to pee from bladder sensitivity),sleep insomnia,and more such as my newest issue that made me get surgery and be hospitalized 2 times first 3 days second 5....lung collapse/pneumothorax. Lung surgery cut and stapled lung. Left lung has same potential issue as right(right was issue). I've lost everything. I can't even drive my car I saved for months and just recently got. I got learners permit but almost crashed from brain fog.

I'm hopeless....I can't describe the horrible bottom pit feeling I have. Please don't tell me it gets better. That is ******* bull. ILLNESS PERMANENT=PERMANENT not GETS BETTER. Thanks