Help..should i run away? Would i get in trouble? i just turned 17 and i need help i dont know what to do about them anymore?

I hav Nyctophobia nd Sciophobia my parents and siblings have made fun of me for so long nd even whn doctors said that my fear is why i cant sleep nd have really bad insomnia my family still made fun of me As long as i can remember ive been bigger then other kids and my parnts hav always made fun of me for it nd im deppressed and evrytime i try tlking to my doctor bout it my parents get mad and tell me to stop wsting ppls time Ive also been called a whore multiple times because my parents dont believe when i told them i was raped and my parents blame me for it. my parents got mad when i talked to a councilar at school about my suicidal thoughts and how my parents wont let me go to therapy ive asked nd my dad gets furious and interrupts and yells at me to stop attention seeking my grandma has also told me multiple times that im not part of the family and that im not worth anything recently my brother has been calling me names and now im scared to shower without a flash light because my brother always comes into the bathroom and turns off the lights and closes and holds the door so i cant get out. I dont know what to do. my mom keeps threatening to throw me in an insane asylum..and my dad keeps saying im a mistake and i shouldnt have been born. my younger sister even broke my laptop and told my parents i broke it and my parents refuse to replace it whle they replaced hers multiple times. Ive attempted to explain to them my issues but they just dont care to listen