Was I really that close to dying? ( overdose on trylic depressant)?

I got extremely suicidle , and basically took a full bottle ( my guess about 2 months worth at least ) pills, they were amiteryline ( spelled something like that) but i know it was a trylic depressant and they were little blue pills used for treating depression, migraines, and it was also a sleeping pill... I was stuck in emerg for two days and my family wouldn't really tell me how I was acting or what I was like , just that " it was bad " .. I legit don't remember being in emerg , like I forgot two days of my life but apparently I was awake? Was I close to actually dying ? How do u even act when your on that many pills ? It fusturates me so much that I don't remember ...