I feel like I was meant to be a male, but physically born female... Help? (Trangender FtM only plz)?

Ever since I was little, I have always hated girly things. I got embarrassed any time I got Barbie dolls, had to wear a dress, walk in heels or do my hair. I ve always been jealous that my brother got G.I. Joe s, Transformers, Ninja Turtles... I always wanted to play with his toys. As I reached the puberty part of life, I always had crushes on girls and boys. I still lust after women mostly, but have sex with men. (Haven t found a woman who is interested in me.) I ve always liked lifting weights, playing video games, played basketball and soccer in school, always wanted guy friends and really didn t like having sleep overs and slumber parties, either. I m 36 today and I have always hated being female and always have wished I was a dude. I always felt like I wasn t supposed to be female, and I will not wear a dress, will not wear heels, and I do have makeup, but I don t wear it, because I hate it. I will not waste time to do my hair. I m more comfortable wearing it up in a bun. I absolutely hate bras, and I don t like anything about being female at all. Currently, I identify as bisexual, because I am attracted to both men and women. I m pretty sure that I am meant to be a dude. I feel disgusting as a woman and I wish that I was a biological male. I have a vagina and I ve never been happy with that. I m pretty sure that I should be identifying as male. What do I do? I want to make the transition but I m scared of society s judgment. Advice?