My older sister committed suicide yesterday?

I lost a great uncle at the age of 7. also a case of suicide. Wich was unexpected for such a happy guy. It basically turned me into an adult way quicker than a kid is supposed to. I have no real advice for these causes. But just know that these things happen.

An hour after posting this devastating news you posted this -

Could I be a plus sized model?

I'm 5'9 and 128 pounds. I'm too big for runway, my measurements are 32A-25-33 I'm a size 0-2 depending. Do you think plus size would take me?

You're recovering at an incredible rate. You don't need our help.

Your story is truly unforgettable, Alexandra. I will remember you for a long long time.

She didn't do it to you. She did it to herself. She wanted to stop the pain and didn't know any other way. She lost hope that her problems could be fixed so a long future was just much more suffering to her. She was wrong, but not in her right mind when she did this. She probably is watching over you and hopes you won't be too devastated by her troubled life and what she did. She wants you to have the best happiest life you can, but just not to forget her. Maybe you can light a candle for her in church if you ever attend one that allows that.

It's very difficult to lose a sibling, especially to suicide. There are so many unanswered questions left behind and lots of different emotions. It's pretty normal to be upset in this kind of situation, and it will take time to heal. The most important thing you can do is reach out for help and support when you need it. There are lots of resources that help people who have lost a loved one to suicide, including the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention. You can also reach out for help by calling a crisis line. There are always people available so you never have to deal with this alone.

JMC, Crisis Counselor

I'm so sorry. What I can tell you is that if she was on some kind of antidepressant, or maybe other kinds of psych meds, they may have caused her to impulsively kill herself in haste, without forethought, probably forgetting what she promised you, etc. It happened to me - I almost killed myself but changed my mind and saved myself. Antidepressants are really bad news - very dangerous, and what's worse, I think the system wants depressed people to kill themselves, so they probably made these drugs to do that. So don't blame your sister - she didn't mean to hurt you - she was trying to escape her own pain, and very likely was pushed to do it by some drug. Actually, I'm pretty sure a lot of illegal drugs can have the same effect. I don't know what else to tell you - I've never lost anyone to suicide. But I have lost my parents, and crying helps, and also "praying" to them helps to - say whatever you want - in anger, in sadness, in love, say I miss you, say "damn you", whatever - it's only natural, and many people do it. Take it one day at a time - gradually you'll get through this and things will feel better. Take care...

im so sorry this happened and i feel for you.

it's hard to say why people commit suicide - just that they are in a place where they are not thinking clearly and it seems like a good option.

this course of action may have made sense to your sister at the time (because she wasn't thinking clearly) and i dont think she realized how much it would hurt you and everyone else when she did it. she couldn't see why it wasn't a good idea - because mental illness has that effect on a persons mind.

that said, she was lucky to have you in her life. she's probably lived a life - even a short one - filled with good moments, including those good moments she shared with you. hold on to those moments, and keep her in your heart.

No one knows her mindset but you must accept it and move on. Just know it was something deep and she still loved you. Keep moving forward. But with someone with bad mental issues, it's best to keep contact with them at all times. Always talk to the mentally ill, ask questions. Because any day they can snap and just end it. Always help the mentally ill as much as you can!

Obviously she couldn't

I'm sorry that you are dealing with such a tragedy. You can find support and a listening ear by calling the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255. They offer support for the survivors of suicide, too.

Uh....why did she do that to YOU????