How do you win an ex back after you have done everything you were NOT supposed to do?

We broke up in March.

The reason I broke up with him is because I suffer of winter blues, plus I had a problem with my career that had me all stressed out. Of course, those are not the reasons, but what I'm saying is that I was very anxious back then due to external factors, plus his father was sick and he was also having to focus in his career.

He has always been a non expressive person, but... in that moment of my life, I needed reassurance that everything will be alright, and I broke up with him.

I know I could say I deserve someone that has more emotional intelligence. But in the end, HE IS the love of my life. I also have to admit that I thought he would wake up and run after me. I know if I had stayed quiet, I would have received a phonecall from him within weeks or months... but I couldn't handle not talking to him... so I called and texted nonstop, we fought all the time, I was needy, then one day I would apologize and then the week after I would call again crying because he has not called.

I have done everything I was not supposed to do... neediness, clinginess, threats... but I love him guys, he really IS the one for me.

Is there any hope for me to get him back? I already apologized (again) after the last turmoil but also told him that I feel bad that he has told everything about my threats to his family... I feel naked. I know I should have not done that, but I was in despair, and all his family knows is this, not how devouted I was when with him :(