I just found out that she is pregnent by this collage guy! This has carried on to far for a joke! I dont know what to do! I might die!?

I have been in love with Samantha Cocks sense we was in kindergarden! Even when we had problems, like when I throwed up in her back pack in 3rd grade or stepped on her fingers an broke 3 of them in kindergarden or the time she was behind me tieing her shoes an I farted long an loud in her face I always thought it would be okay an we would be togethor. Welp, last year I saw her an her bff at Sears an when she saw me she said "doesnt he go to are school?" an then they BOTH LAUGHED! So it was ovious she was in love with me an then she started calling me by a cute little nickname (Creetin) but she wouldnt be my gf! So I was waiting for her an next thing she is dateing this collage guy! Welp, I figure it was to make me jealous an she kept it up for a YEAR! Then I see she is INGAGED to this guy! OMG I almost died but I thought its okay, they can brake up an she can be with me! She moved 600 miles away to VERMONT! Then tonight was the last straw that broke the camels back, she is PREGNENT! That means while I was waiting for her they was doing sex stuff! OMG I will never live threw this, I can't even understand how this could happen! Why make it so ovious your in love with me, saying "doesnt he go to are school" an laughing an calling me Creetin an then just up an be pragnent by this collage fagit? WTF? I suppose cause I failed my school 5 times I was not good enough for her? My mom said I am the hansomest boy at school so I know I am good enough! What can I do?