13 and depressed?

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This might be a little long but I feel so alone right now. I'm 13 and in 8th grade I go to high school in a few months..I barely have any friends and I'm really antisocial. I have one friend her name is Melanie but she puts me down a lot and people always like to be around her she's really outgoing and people find her funny and cool to be around i've been living in her shadow since7th grade. When she doesn't come to school I barely use my voice people always ask me where she is they never ask me how i'm doing or start a regular conversation. People tend to pick on me a lot they find me odd because I don't talk to anyone I just keep to myself. I self harm and stuggle with my apprearance a lot I cry myself to sleep most nights. My parents think I'm a failure and a liar. I'm starting to think that too. I've tried to kill myself last year a couple of weeks before Christmas but I couldn't cut deep enough and it hurt too much so I just sat there and cried until I couldn''t cry anymore. I hate living in other people's shadows. I hate being made fun of for not doing anything but minding my own buisness. I hate not having something special about me. I hate being useless. I hate living. Sometimes I wonder if I even belong in this world. I feel so out of place everywhere I go. I have no friends I'm always lonely. Am I the only who feels out of place 100 percent of the time? I need people to relate to.

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Made a few typos btw

Berry-Buddy · Accepted Answer

You are absolutely not alone. This is such a cliche thing to say, but honestly most people will go through depression at some point. I myself have for years, and I'm only 19. It can be super hard at times, but honestly talking to someone about your feelings helps so much more than you may think. Whether it's your parents, or school counselor you shouldn't have to go through depression alone. Depression can make you feel like nobody cares, when they really do. Opening up to your parents about this can be very difficult, but I did at age 16 and afterwards things eventually got better. You are still young. There are thousands of places to go, and millions of people to meet in life. If you honestly died, you would never know what could have been. Sure, you may be a quiet person, but you could practice being social if it would make you happier! It can be super hard to be positive when you are in a dark headspace, but I think you should tell someone about this so they can send good vibes.

k w · Answer

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Go to a meet up .... go to meetup.com in your town or city and find a group that shares your interest, heaps of  different interests out there and a variety of things to share. And the people who attend are incredibly friendly.

Volunteer your services! There are so many worthwhile situations that you can assist in and take away your negative focuses on yourself. It would be so hard to feel sad when you are receiving immense gratitude from the less fortunate people you are helping.

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13 and depressed?

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