mental health deterioration?

so at the start of this year, I was I suppose... normal? unchanged, indifferent, another sheep in the herd.

but after this summer, I had gotten sick and well they put me on these strong antibiotics, however during the use of these I developed almost an anger issue.

the antibiotics were really strong and made me feel horrible like, I'm talking I have, since taking those pills, been irritable to the point where I am now suicidal because the feeling wont go away and its led to a mental decline.

almost to the point where I feel I may need to sign my rights over to the government because my grip on reality is so bad right now I wake up not knowing what to believe or not.

I had an extreme bout of memory loss, as well as other issues because of this medicine I was "prescribed"

and I used to know 3 languages 8 instruments and a whole lot of other things... but now that I am wishing to die every day as I wake up, the company basically called me a liar because this antibiotic "has never developed issues of this nature before"

I currently am extremely suicidal and I cant understand a whole lot anymore, constantly regretting what I personally feel are normal decisions...

I don't want to go too into depth but I'm so distraught over the entire situation I'm seriously ready for suicide. I'm basically homeless because the medicine was 25$ per pill and I was given a months worth

cant get on medicare or anything...

idk... do I just give away my rights or do I rot?