I feel trapped and don't want to be alive anymore?

well, sir, with your kind permision , you're young enough to be my son- to begin with....

let's say- this in itself is just far beyond enough for your words here to shake and thrill my heart and soul....

you're at the utmost age of flourishing in every way -on one hand - and a very difficult age, too- on the other hand....

and it sounds to me you're depressed and traumatised deeply and severely enough- and it's crystal- clear why....

and I just want you to exactly know how proud I am of your guts to open your heart and soul and reach for help- at least this way....

please, inasmuch as possible- immediately let your parents/ closest available family and/ or some responsible adult thereof: Family Doctor, school counsellor, social worker...someone... exactly know what you're going through , ask for and timely get the help you need....

your getting beaten and/ or bullied by your so called friends has to immediately be stopped - whatever it takes- and regardless of anything else...it's about time...

.it has to be a real- life, responsible , highly- professional medical decision whether you need the professional help of a psychiatrist or so, in real life- in your area, someone skilled in treating people of your age, with no further delay ( which I definitely think)

but beyond this....

you probably need all the tender, love and care you can get....

and yet beyond this....

something has to change in your life.... something essential....

your attitude, too.... yes, sir....

you've got to do your best to boost your self- esteem and self- confidence....

to learn/ get used to love and respect yourself along with respecting others....yeah...

and it's just about time for you to clearly set clear- cut limits to people: the limits ( may they be unbreakable ) of your human dignity...yes, sir!.

I think yor practicing some kind of outdoors sport: swimming, cycling, jogging, martial arts... could help you feel better...go for it....

you're very young - so I think you're wrong when you think you won't live enough to have a wife and kids... yes, sir!

by all means- NOTHING of what you told us above makes you really worthless...NO WAY!

I want you, I beg you and I urge you to fully understand you're one of a kind: NEVER EVER before was there ANYONE just like you- nor could there EVER be such....

that's why yourlife and quality of life are holy enough shrines to thoroughly be protected, whatever it takes....yes, sir...

tha's why they are to NEVER be ''prone'' at the discretion of ANYONE's good or ill will....

refrain, repeat REFRAIN from ANY form of even trying to self -harm or take your own life- whatsoever....

heed the fact that NO ONE and NOTHING is worth your paying the price of your life...

heed also the fact that such a ''try''- even a ''failed'' one - can leave you both physically and further mentally disabled for good....

you clearly deserve much better than this...

stick to life.... timely get the help you need.....

and may life come your way...

may it smile to you in return...

may you find the power to overcome your life's hardships....

may you make all your dreams come true

the best possible, dignified way...

here-in this world....

may you stay forever- blessed and kept safe and proof from all harm

Here you claim even your teachers would say you're not smart. 2 weeks ago in another suicidal post you said you're not dumb and claimed to have a 4.5 GPA (which is impossible considering the grade point system stops at 4.0 at the highest). What you describe of your life as facing hate and racism from every angle, including your friends and including your school ("I'm not dumb my GPA is a 4.5 but school thinks I'm stupid cause of my race"), when in reality schools hold up their highest achieving students as a shining beacon of how good the school is, and your total lack of any effort to fight back and better yourself, is more than is believable. Nobody's life is that awful. I call bullsh!t.

To be able to live to see 18 in this distressing world is truly a blessing! Your negative thoughts are draining you mentally, emotionally, and physically. Now is the time to combat those negative feelings! Whenever you are plagued by feelings of worthlessness, you need to be determined to fight back. For example: In ancient times, a soldier would not dare engage in battle without his helmet. He knew that it would cushion many a blow and cause many a missile to glance off harmlessly. As a helmet protects the head, so hope protects the mind. Dwelling on thoughts that fill you with hope will keep you from negative, fearful, pessimistic thinking. Whenever feelings of self-doubt surface, try to fill your mind with positive thoughts. In time, you too will see that life is worth living!

Hi. I'm 19 male. I too wish I was dead,and don't think I'll make it much longer. I'm waiting for the moment.

I have fatigue and dizziness and migraine issues etc 24/7. I'm pretty unhappy. I suffer in my own way,but you can see I have a valid reason for feeling this way. I think I'm the only one responding to you that is suicidal.

I'm sorry to hear your situation. When you say you get your daily beatings from your "friends", do they literally beat you,or tease you?

Are your parents supportive? Do you want to live but also want to die? In other words,do you want to want to live?

Please further explain your situation,and I've you've tried meds,if you have parents that care,or siblings. Please explain why you are depressed. I may not respond immediately,but I'll check back and comment if I see you leave one.

I found someone on yahoo answers that still emails me and checks up on me and tries so hard weekly to get me to live. And I'm still unable to do so. I hope that you can.

If you let them beat you to death you'll go to another dimension after you die, and who knows, you might be MUCH happier there!

You are a child of God. Your life has value, purpose and meaning. You are lovable simply because you exist. Seek God and uplifting things that will give your soul positive light to bask in. One step at a time. Start creating healthy patterns and follow your heart. Call a suicide line if you are struggling with suicide. You are priceless and have wonderful gifts to contribute to this world that no one else can. There is divinity within you as a child of God.

Yes. Just like everyone else...

This reads as if you live in a reality that there is just no help for. If you want real and proven and true knowledge for what all it is to be human, take these articles, one per week, and each one, have a 4th day review for it, and you might as well see if you can find anyone to read and discuss them with.

I PROMISE that you will not regret knowing these articles, and using them for managing other people than yourself.

http://acmelab.yale.edu/sites/default/files/our_un... This one is about our impulse, and how it is made up of 3 things that make us all stupid; judging without knowing, mimicking without knowing and stereotyping without knowing.

Dr. James Messina, coping.us, "Handling Pride" where immoderate pride really is one heck of a mo fo, and this article truly explains just how pride is a mortal sin, and a doozy at that.

http://coping.us/toolsforpersonalgrowth/handlingpr...

Dr. James Messina, coping.us, "Handling Insecurity", where ALL OLD PEOPLE THAT I KNOW really do say that they needed to know about insecurities at age 6 more like, than to wait so long to know oneself and it.

http://coping.us/toolsforpersonalgrowth/handlingin...

Dr. James Messina, coping.us, "Overcoming The Role Of Victim & Martyr:", where this one really is perfect for helping us to cut through so much brainwashing done by both businesses and governing. Do you realize just how much brainwashing we are all under? a lot, I am telling you.

http://coping.us/toolsforrelationships/victimvsmar...

Seriously, finding someone to discuss these with really will help you and that persons relationship. They each help people to get to know each other on levels never before realized.

Good luck.

Go online and find the phone numbers for crisis hotlines. Call when you won’t be interrupted.

They are free and confidential and safe to talk to. They want to talk to and listen to you openly!

And they are specially trained to help people in your exact situation.

Call ASAP. What do you have to lose?

Alright, say you commit suicide, then what? You wasted potential, and you have completely ruined your family by causing them to get depressed.

The people who don't believe in you are just a drag and don't waste your time on them.

Everyone is smart. Those teachers are retarded, and even the smartest people like Elon Musk and bill gates agree that our education system makes us feel depressed and useless, so don't believe untrained and un-sympathetic teachers that you're not smart.

You are depressed, and scientifically that means that your body is not making enough "happy-hormones", which is a medical problem that you have to fix. and as for your friends, so do they jokingly beat you around or do they actually mean it? If they actually mean it, leave them. Don't think of it as losing your friends, when they weren't your actual friends in the beginning. If they jokingly say things to you, tell them to stop saying that and tell em you're having a hard time.

Start getting medical help by saving up money by a part time job, start getting fit, make yourself look more attractive to be more confident, and rebuild your life.