Live Art Anxiety?

I have a question. I was recently in a live performance (it was nuts, completely unscripted, controversial, and mildly humiliating). It went well but I'm still anxious about it. How do you put yourself out there, knowing what you're doing is crazy, and still live with yourself? I'm shitting bricks thinking someone might recognize me. I've always wanted people to just leave me alone but the thrill of people actively giving me that "look" you get when you're unintentionally weird in public but completely uncensored and outright was awesome. And it wasn't unintentional, to go and put myself out there. I don't regret it but I wish I was less anxious. Any live performers or people who are fighting social anxiety who can give me advice would be great. I have therapy on the 21st and I plan on talking to him about this but for the next 5 days I'd like some help till then. Thank you!!