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I wanted people that looked up to me. I wanted people that I was--in my chosen craft that I was better than. I wanted people that made me feel like I'd sort of already made it. That's just like death. Doing that is so stupid and if I could go back in time and challenge myself and put me around people that blew me away. But people who are better than me really made me feel insecure and that insecurity really did eat at my ability to perform. So it's actually pretty interesting because you do have to find that balance. I don't think people should try to silence the negative voice in their head. But, I also don't think they should succumb to it. I think you should listen to the negativity because it will call out **** that's real. You're not working hard enough, you're not good at this. You're absolutely right. But if I let that affect how I feel about myself, now I become self-destructive. So that voice has got to be that voice of clarity. It's got to be the O'****. That's the thing I need to work on, got it!