Will I be under a fraud radar forever? ?

I have committed fraud in the past. I've written checks from empty bank accounts, paid credit cards from empty bank accounts, and have tried to pay myself through paypal. When I make payments to my credit cards, specifically through Citi, my account is only credited for 1 second, then drops back. The card is maxed out. I called them and the guy gave me the run around telling me that my credit will reset in a few weeks. Why do these people lie to me? He made up some story saying that it is because I maxed out the card. I've made a big payment to the card, and I do not have access to the funds at all. 

I've made poor financial decisions which caused me to be really poor and bankrupt. It is so sad when you try to overdraft your bank account and your card is declined in public. People stare at you and parents tell their children never to become like that. Even a 7 year old knows how to manage money compared to me. I had no intentions to commit fraud, I just needed money. I'm incredibly poor and I work a low wage job that pays less than a McDonalds worker. 

I want to get off the fraud radar. How do I do that? Please help me, because just recently, the bank took away overdraft services and I tried to eat, and it took a partial payment. I am filing a dispute to get the money back.