I dont want to live anymore! I swear this isnt my fault its just circumstance!!! I gotta kill myself!?

I feel bad for you,  you have to stay alive  just change your life, break up with your friends/wife go on a vacation, even try some expensive hipster food if you don't have that much money to change your life.

:) Merry Christmas, if no one gave you anything special go check the bargain bin for discount candy and be fast about it a few days from now.

...than change the circumstances. 

Merry Christmas and good bye!

It is your fault because you are not doing anything to change your life around. Killing yourself is not an option. You need to get your life in order. You need to be in therapy. No one can help you. Only you can help you by getting the help that you need. Get to know the real you and get to learn how to cope with life. You can't give up on yourself. You need support and you need to talk to a professional about what is really going on with you. 

You know life can bring us down, but you have the power to continue with your journey.  Life was never intended to be easy, but we can fight for what we want and deserve. Shoot for the stars, and grab them. This world is your oyster.