I just want katherine to like me?

It's like a mental torment if she likes me or not cause I respect her so much.... I did bad things before I saw her last and it might of made an impression I'm a mean person.... I just want to be liked so bad.. and it feels like if she's against me the whole world is against me... I know that can't be true but it feels that way... and it's been so long and I'm still thinking about her.... it's just she's a human and is important and a human that gave me some respect and I admire her for that... but I'll never see her again and I can't get over her...