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It's been forever. 6...8 years. I don't know, maybe longer. I've thought of too many ways to end my life. I'm just so sick of it.

As a kid, I've always been in and out of doctors offices... people thought I faked being sick. It felt like I was being a bother to my parents, who struggled enough to raise 4 kids. The truth is, I was very sickly as a kid, and people weren't too kind. I've especially had problems making friends over the years, and I've never held a steady friendship throughout grade school. It's weird because, everyone thought I was nice, but only knew me as the quiet girl who drew well. To add to this, I'm bisexual, but my parents would probably cut me off and not want to see ever again if they knew. I'd lose it for sure, and probably just want to die even more.

Writing is my therapy ever since I was about 12 years old... It's always been my saving grace. But lately, everything is so dark -- so cold -- and Death often invites me to dine with him. In retrospect, I've had so many spells of raging depression; sometimes getting so angry and upset with myself and others, and other times I envision people standing over my dead body. I just can't see a future for me. I mean.. I'm a pretty decent student and got into one of the top universities in the U.S., but I've just lost all hope that my mind will recover from this depression.

It's so hard to focus on anything anymore. My mind roams endlessly. Death could be so easy if...

I'm writing a futuristic adventure story and of course, I'm going to need some names.

In the story are a team of 3 girl rebels, like anarchist. From this list, choose your top three:

Jezebel, Ixy, Ploy, Anaise, Loren, Solstice, Maureen

Jaimie, Klandestine, Skipper, Rost, Tasia, Yira

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I also need figurehead names. These would be the "leaders" against a governmental collapse. They will be referred to as Generals, Commanders, etc.

PICK TWO: Noal, Olipius, Eriston, Kitu, N'mahl, Olifeph, Weroque

PICK TWO: Gamnala, Retna, Thithori, Suneia, Loista, Karnuk, Paliyopi

----- EXPLAIN WHY YOU PICKED THEM (for BEST ANSWER) -----

And colors you associate with your pick... i.e.) When I think of the name Ploy, I think of an orange color...

I think it's kind of hypocritical to be a LGBT and a discriminate or prejudice toward anyone. Sexual equality and racial equality are both human rights, so I could not imagine people in the LGBT community expressing racism.

How do you feel about this topic?

It's a short improv song I made up as I went along, titled Shy Love.

Written and performed by me on ukulele.

Ladies: If you were the girl I wrote it for, how would you feel?

Can you tell me what you think of it please?

Meow :3

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pt_RiES4Uo8

I did a very rushed improvisation song titled Shy Love.

Written and performed by me on ukulele.

Can you tell me what you think of it?

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I love watching the old 90s movies, but want to see something fresh.

Are there any Lesbian/Bi cinema (from any time period really) that you recommend?

Share please :)

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Title: The Incredibly True Adventure of Two Girls in Love.

If so, tell me what you thought about it. Do you think American culture is still the same in terms of gay pride? Or have views changed?

If not, the full movie is on YouTube. It's really good, you should check it out.

There's this girl that I've known for almost a year now, I met her freshman year in college. I've had a major thing for her... Every time I see her, I get nervous (but never show it). She's a gorgeous human being to say the least. lol. We're friends and I want to stay friends. But it's gotten bad to the point where she's been in lots of my dreams. And she kinda has this hairstyle, whenever I see it I think of her.

Well anyways, since I don't want to mess up our friendship, I need help/advice on how to keep the friendship alive but let go of the thought of us being together. It's just not going to happen, I'm not so sure if she's into girls like that.

Any advice?

What do you know or would want to know about:

American history

Free masons

Constitution of the United States

New world order

Presidential family history (all related presients)

Etc.

Please no non-nenes answers.

Thanks!

I have been feeling low lately. I think it may be Bi-polar type II and this might affect day-to-day mood. I've had worse days where I've thought about self-harm... and today was a little ironic. In speech class, this guy starts off his speech asking, "How many people want to die?" I thought to myself, "...well yea", and even though I didn't raise my hand, I felt as if I did.

It's like I want to die, but don't want to kill myself. I'm just afraid and don't know where to start, how to get better...

I'm a little scared of seeking help. And to talk about things like this to family or friends, I know things would never be the same. To make matters worse than my chronic depression/bi-polar episodes, they don't know that I'm bisexual - and I really don't want to tell them... But I know I have to at some point. Everyone in my immediate life is strict Christian (and I just can't deal with what they might do...) with the exception of a few friends. This has gone on for too long now. I'm 19 and knew for sure that I was bi since I was 16. I just don't know what to do...

Help?

It's not like I'm trying to or anything.

I don't need to hear negative comments.

Just for fun! To get ideas for a video competition :) thanks

I thought this was hilarious. My dad doesn't like homosexuality and doesn't see it fit that they raise kids. People like him would often say, " oh! They will be some confused little children."

For all of you who were raised by straight parents, how do you feel?

I mean, homo-relationships that have kids on the picture don't necessarily mean their kids will be that way. And if they are, then who cares. Really. I think the thinking beyond that quote is ridiculous.

Regarding people who think we are two-timers who can't make up our minds. I don't get why this is.

This morning I was awoken by the loud noise of my house alarm going off. I got up to check out the situation, but my brother got to it before I could. So I just went back to my room. Not locking my bedroom or or closing the door to my jack-and-Jill bathroom, I laid my head down to return to sleep. It had not even been a minute before I closed my eyes and I heard a noise. My eyes stayed closed and I felt what seemed like something pressing into my bed. Getting closer. Then the freakiest moment, I felt the warm breath as this thing whispered into my exposed ear. I freaked out and immediately opened my eyes. And found nothing but a cold empty room. I was not dreaming... And I promise this really happened. Was I visited?

*It probably doesn't help to mention that I read Abraham Lincoln's Vampire Hunter the night before.

I think I might have some kind of it. It might not be as extreme as some, but I definitely have drastic personality changes very often.

Or I'm open to suggestions.

For a girl.

Leilani Kaiye ( lay-lahn-Nee Kay)

Emiree Alyse (Em-Mir-EE Al-Leese)

For a boy.

Jude Leyland (lay-Lend)

Chase Alexander

I also like the names Malik, Aiden (or Brayden), Saphora, Grayson, June. But don't know what to pair them with.

Hace you ever thought about science as proving creationism? I see them hand in hand. And is an interesting topic for discussion. What do you think? Can science and creationism merge and get along?

I'm bisexual and there's this girl in my history class that I have sat next to for the entire semester. We talk all the time and I really like her, a more than friends thing. Only problem is she claims she is straight and I can't tell if she is looking to date girls. There have been a couple signs that she might like me. I'll list them, but I need your help because I wouldn't want to hit on her and she not talk to me anymore.

The signs I observed are:

- She always compliments my clothes and stuff, even when I just throw things together

- When we talk, she'll get really close to my face

- She talks to other people in class but never have the conversations we have (she shares personal stories with me)

- She waits on me or I'll wait on her so we can walk to our next class

- I posted on fb, hinting that I like her and she likes the post (it was a subtle hint)

- I bought her something and she hugged me and didn't want me to leave

It's so confusing sometimes. But maybe you have a new point of view?

I have been avoiding people lately, my mom mentioned I don't make eye contact anymore. I'm not painfully shy or anything, I love talking to people, I've just been feeling down lately. In the day I don't show emotions, and at night I cry sometimes. I don't know why.

Also, in psychology I took a survey and my score said I was moderately depressed. This isn't new either, I been off and on with this for a year or so, and occasionally bad thoughts. Any suggestions to what I should do?