cobweb

Things have been bad where I work and are not improving. We're shortstaffed and everyone's unhappy but I actually like my job and my male boss. I applied for a job elsewhere one night when I was low and was interviewed recently. It is a little different from my current role and I didn't really think I would get it. But I have. Thing is, it's working for a woman and frankly I have always worked for men. I find working for women difficult. The woman has left me a message and I've also spoken on the phone since, but already I find her voice alone irritating. I don't really want to stay where I am so unhappy, but I am cautious about jumping into a new job where I am not sure I am going to get along with the manager. I need to make a decision today.

This isn't a new feeling, I've wanted a child for over 20 years. Thing is, I've waited because I felt I should be in the right relationship with the right guy, and for various reasons this hasn't happened. So what now?

I've thought about using a donor for the last 7 years, but put it off because I felt a child needed two parents. However, I am rapidly coming to the conclusion that if I don't do something soon I'll be too old.

The other alternatives are to wait and hope that Mr Right comes along, which now seems unlikely, or to have a child with a good friend of mine. He is also single and desperately wants a child. We see a lot of each other and are very close. But we're not lovers and this bothers me because I am not sure I should have a child with a guy whom I don't love..... Hmm