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I really like the experimental poetry I've read. Then I found Blake Butler and wondered if there was anyone else similar.

I like unique use of space/language. Ideas.

His writing feels like a giant poem, like more art than fiction, maybe.

Sam pink is another good one for that.

But I don't know much else besides poetry.

Are there just not many people doing it?

I think it's also classed as innovative or avant garde fiction.

Thank you.

The deep dark space. The fear. All day we are surronded by the air, and only at night do we feel it take shape. The cold black shadow that covers us in our sleep, that interupts our dreams, turning and twisting through the expanse of our minds.

The child closes her eyes, the familiar black veil of her eyelids blocking out the harsh uncertainty around her. Just as black. Just as dark. But somehow she finds her own darkness more conforting. Something she forces upon herself. Something she chooses.

And when the strain of squeezing her eyes shut becomes too much she wanders to her mother’s room. Reassured with the promise of somewhere to go. Reassured by the feeling of putting one foot in front of the other.

In her mothers arms she finds comfort. Her mother tells her that god will save them all. Her mother knows. The long searching arms of the shadows will not reach her now. She is safe in her mothers embrace.

As sun sends the shadows into hiding, she slowly awakes to the comfort of her own bed. The night before seems so far away. The dark shadows reveal themselves as a jumble of clothes on the floor.

Through the years a simple set of instructions is passed on, she will be always protected, if she believes, if she follows a set code of conduct. She will never explore the scenery of the cool night air. She will never let go. She will close her eyes and sleep in the peace she has confined herself to.

Choosing to place something beautiful behind that all too familiar black expanse, something reassuring. Never visible with open eyes. The savior. The hero who commands commitment, sacrifice.

Faith is the answer when it should be the question.

Sorry, Im just driving through.

Shes standing outside her home,

a plastic bag at her feet and a ciggarete in her hand

Her left thumb thrust expectantly in the air.

I'm sorry, Im just driving through.

The expectancy fades from her eyes,

And it seems floats away with the unabsorbed pollution of her ciggerette.

Im sorry,

Im afraid to slow the ongoing twist of the wheels under my feet,

Im just driving through.

With a tight smile of apology

I leve her standing in a cloud of dust and smoke.

She may not have a day out today,

She may not get out of this place ever.

But due to the simple micanics of my foot on the pedal,

Im just driving through.

Sorry.

So I started a new school at the begining of this year, and everybodies quite cliquey, and im not really part of any of the cliques. Which is fine by me because im not really like that. In my classes I allways have people to sit with and talk to, but then at lunch time when everyone goes off with their close friends, I go off on my own to do my schoolwork on my own in the computer room.

Which is really depressing. I dont really want to be part of any of the cliques at school, but i do really wish I had something to do for my lunchtimes and somewhere do go.

What would you do?

Thankyou :)

So im 17, ive never had a boyfriend before, and i started at a new school at the begining of this year.

When i first started at the new school i got asked out quite abit. Which was really weird for me coz i got bullied at my old school.

And now Ive got something going with this guy, hes really, cute and funny and sweet. And hes fun.

But sometimes when im with I just get this feeling that theres something wrong, and that im making a mistake. The last thing i wanna do is lead him on and hurt him.

I dont know how to describe it, i like him, but theres kindof these little things that annoy me sometimes, like on facebook hes allways got these updates with the stupid games he plays. Or stuff he says sometimes. And when he texts me and says "yo". Just the tiniest stupidest things that normally I would never even notice about someone.

And i dont know? Does anyone know what i mean?

Im not being a ***** at all I just dont really know how i feel and i dont want to hurt him while im trying to figure it out.

I have lots of friends that are boys. I just dont really seem to click with girls, do you think theres something wrong with that? I think they think im a bit snobby, and maybe a bit of a hoe, because i spend all my time with the boys, and dont talk to them.

Its not that im a hoe, and i just love being surronded by boys all the time or anything, its just that when i try and hang out with girls it doesnt work, and the boys seem to be more simplier. Maybe you know what i mean?

Its not that i have a problem with them, i just cant seem to connect with them.

My guy friends that i have are awesome, and I love them all to bits, its just that hanging out with girls looks really fun as well.

I dont really talk about fashion, or gossip, but my friends tell me that im quite girly.

So basicly just how do girls make friends with eachother and whats it like? And how would i go about it?

I thought i would just turn it back on and charge it, but I turned it back on and it just said that the phone was to flat to turn on.

So I plugged it into the wall and left it for the whole night, and this morning it was exactly the same.

Then i tried to turn it back on again and now it wont even light up.

What do i do? Has this ever happened to you?

I dont know any of this, lol. But im trying to figure out what I like so's i can get more of it.. :)

At school my brothers quite popular, mostly just because hes and asshole and he bully's people.

Im the complete opposite of my brother and im nice to everyone, and shy.

So hes really popular, and im not.

I used to get lots of stick when i was younger, because i was just really shy, and people didn't like me. I dont anymore, and im friends with most of the people who did it now :)

So anyways, my brother never stops going on about all the things people used to do to me when i was younger, which kinda just sounds really stupid, but it honestly makes me feel horible cuz he just never stops.

And he allways wants me to do things, like he told me that i have to change schools. And hes actually really serious about it. He had a big spazz at my mum telling her that she should make me. And he had a big spazz at me. I dont wanna move schools cuz i love my friends at this school ( he tells me that my friends are the most of the problem cuz he thinks that theyre all to fat.)

And now hes decided that im not aloud to listen to techno, cuz he thinks hes a Dj. Pahhh!

All he dos is cut and paste bits out of other songs, and they still sound like ****.

But whenever I try tell him his music sucks he tells me that more people like his music than they like me, and i cant think of anything to say because thats true.

I dont know much about techno tbhh. But i like Afrojack && Dj blend :)

Who do youu think are the best?

I want some new clothes :)

I dont really live near many good shops tbhh, so most of my clothes come from the warehouse.

hahha , so if someone could tell me a good online shop to buy the kind of clothes i like , that would be awesome. Im only 16 so dont give me the name of a posh boutique or anything (:

And i would much, much rather if it was a New Zealand shop, cuz i dont wanna wait for ages for postage, or have to pay lots.

Thanks guys :) <333

Im naturally quite slender. I eat alot, but i allways seem to be hungry and so i eat more.

but for some reason i just dont get fat. I'm pretty happy with what i look like but i think if i was a little more chubby i could look and feel better.

So ive decided im going to do some research :)

My hair && skin can get oily quite fast, so i dont really feel like eating more oily foods.

So basicly i want to gain weight but keep my complection good :)

Ohhh yeahh and I love eggs, Will they help?

So when it comes to boys im kinda an idiot. I get bored and I flirt with them in a way that i think is just friendly and then they take me the wrong way and ask me out. Then i say no. Then they end up asking me again.

But then i think i actually like this guy. I thought he was going out with my friends friend, so of course i left it. But then he caught me looking at him and smiled. That happened like three times so i thought obviously i had something wrong, cuz hes a sweet guy and he wouldn't do that if he had a girlfriend. So i carried on for the rest of the day, and so did he.

I talked to my friend about it and she said that she though him and Mara ( the girl who i thought he was with ) still had something, even though we both didn't know what it was. And that if i wasn't sure about him i should leave it.

But for all i know she could like ten different people. And i think i quite like this guy.

But then again I have a history of leading guys on and then changing my mind and not knowing what to do.

Basicly i just want to carry on flirting with him cuz i like him. But i dont like him enough to ruin it if he still has something with Mara. But i dont want to hold of and than find out a year later that she had a bf the whole time

I was talking to my friend about it the other day and she says that I only have people be bitchy to me cuz i choose to, What does that mean?

Im not ugly and im not annoying or anything.

When people who dont like me talk to me they say im too much like a model. But i dont get it because Im not really pretty or anything. Im kindaa just average. Maybe a little above average. And im not stuck up or anything. Im just a person like them.

And when they do it i stand up for myself too. Like this girl said that the seat that i was sitting on was hers, and i said it wasnt and i didnt move. I thought if you stood up for yourself it went away!? Its been like this for almost a year now.

They act like im rich too, like im spoilt or something. But they've all seen me get picked up from school in the uglest car ever. And they all know they have better clothes and everything then me.

They say im dumb too. To go with the model thing. Like shes such a dopey dumb *****. All she knows how to do is pose and buy clothes.

Everytime i say something smart they all go, Woaahh she got something right for once!

And if i get something wrong they go, err shes so dumb she never gets any right,.

So why is it me all the time?

Just dyed my hair black from blonde. Any tips? thankyouu(:

Please dont just comment and tell me im stupid, thankyouu :)

im pretty sure i suit black but its gone really harsh, and while im waiting for it to fade i want to know what i can do. Ive noticed blusher helps lots. Anything else i can do?

Thankyouu.

I have really bad black heads on one side of my nose, and i want to get rid of them.

And its kindda red there too, will that go away with the blackheads? Or should i do something about that two?

The holidays only go for one week and i want them completly gone by then.

I dont want to spend much money, teehehe cuz i got none..

And i think steaming my face is good too, how often can i do that before something bad happens?

And is it bad to try push them out? I know everyone says its really bad, but some of them have been there for ages, and the one i did looks mucch much better :)

Thankyouu :)

Teehhe im interested in philosophy(:

im not really interested in food names, more words which mean concepts of philosophys that i wouldnt have heard of(:

Like if id never heard the word karma than i would never have thought in that way, and tbhh i think my life would be quite a bit worse of(:

When i was little i was the most argumentitive little **** youu ever saw. I was so cocky, i won every speech competion. Tbhh i was a little ******** and everyone hated me, but i was so cocky i didnt care. xD

The i went to intermediate and the kids there gave me lots of shitt. I got all suicidal for about half a year. That was when i lost all myy confidence. That was like two years ago now and i think im a different person again now. Ive changed heaps and kindof grown up. Ive gotten confidence now but im still really shy. Like i know im alright, and theres nothing wrong with me but everytime i try and talk i clam up.

This new boy started last at the begining of this year. Hes really hawt and i seriously got a crush on him. That would be ohhk and i would just get over it, but he likes me back!!!

Lol i think its myy karma(:

Anywayys, ive decided i wanna go back to how confident i should be now(: but i dont know how to do it.

Were in class and i know the answer and i cant move! i honestly cannot open my mouth.

This boy who is so sexxy he makes me wanna dance, and started coming and talking to me. Honestly hes so sweet hes been trying since the begining of 2010! And i still cant talk to him! He came in one day and he was like whats up really loud cuz hes so cocky and i was soo so so shy all i could do was sit there. He stayed for about ten minutes of me saying nothing and then left! Hes so sweett! theres so many things i want to say to him but myy mouth wont move!

Theres still the girls who used to be bitchy to me and they really dont want him to talk to me (hes really really hawt!!) He comes in to talk to me and they follow him and sit there and evil me!

errrgg and i have to do a speech on monday!

And that girl who hates me will be there!

What do i do? What do i say to them? what do say to him? What am i gunna do for myy speech?

Shes been bullying me since yr 9 [ yr 11 now ]

but she kindaa eaised of abit.

Then this new boy comes and starts flirting and being so sweet to me && and youu could see she was mad but she ignored it, now me and him have had a thing for like a quarter of a year and shes got really pissed off. Hes really popular and hot and all the girls seem to like him.

Her friend came in when i was talking to him and he went over to talk to her, she talked to him for like 3 minutes and then pretends she just noticed im there and go's ohh hi Annaleese, making myy names sound proper disgusting, and then just ignored me and carried on talking to him.

Then i had to walk though the class with those to girls and him in it and the first girl, was like model, really really bitchy voice and kinda stomped her foot.

Then they were talking to him and he said something about me, and she was like eww is she your girlfriend or something??! and he said no.

Im already shy to talk to him and i dont know what to do?

What do i say to them?

I like him alot but im shy and then theres them and he doesnt have a cellphone, and we cant be seen in public together cuz ill get killed by them! What do i do??

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Advice??!