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-depression/anxiety

-self-isolation

-addiction

-battling your demons

no religious symbols, i was raised on the lie of catholicism until i was old enough to know better and turn my back. However, id accept any anti-theistic ideas. My addiction (heroin, painkillers) roots from my severe anxiety and depression, and i have come close to ending it all many times (not attention seeking) but ive learned over the many attempts, that i dont have the balls to follow through with it due to my fear of what comes after. Funny thing is i still fear hell more than anything considering i have no belief in god anymore, but thats an example of the **** that sticks with you when you are raised in a harcore catholic environment. Ideas?

I am well aware of the effects of both pills, but i am just curious about how they would feel together. Valium by itself is alright (with bud of course), but ambien kinda just makes me feel weird, and ironic as it is i was not able to sleep after taking 40 mg one time. It doesnt just make me feel weird because of that high dose in particular, i have taken it in 10 mg form, and feel the effects but i must be missing the "euphoria" that everyone raves about. Euphoria only comes from the poppy plant for me, or happiness in general actually. But the valium is a low dose (10 mg) but i have ambien (10 mg), i know that one will potientiate the other since they are both CNS depressants, but how does it feel to you?

P.S.

-No bitching and no preaching

-I dont give a **** if you condone drugs

-honest and non-defensive answer please

Coincidence that I saw this question in a movie ive recently watched, but it was weird that i used to think about this all the time when i was a kid. If it were possible to be in a sphere that is composed completely as a mirror, what would you see?

Other people with a lot of film knowledge and good judgement, help me out here. Straw dogs was awesome, the wild bunch was great, but i have yet to see "bring me the head of alfredo garcia". I have two questions:

1. What was the whole deal with sam peckinpah, drunk, with his tie around his head and calling john wayne a f@ggot?

2. If you have seen "bring me the head of alfredo garcia", tell me how you thought about it, if it's true peckinpah style, and if its worth watching (very eager).

If it helps, some of my favorites are CITY OF GOD, AMERICAN BEAUTY, BRICK, ICHI THE KILLER, DAWN OF THE DEAD (1974 of course), STAND BY ME, RESERVOIR DOGS, BLOOD SIMPLE, MEMENTO, SUNSHINE, BLOW, BOWLING FOR COLUMBINE. Plus many more foreign films many of you wouldnt know of. I have an open mind for movies and a wide variety of taste. Best recently made movies for me (since i prefer the classics) is between Watchmen (have all original comics as well) and Gran Torino.

I basically know most of what i need to know about all drugs in general, but at a time in my life I didnt. When i was much younger, me and my friends would basically steal any abusable presciption pills from our houses or wherever we could find them, and blow every oe regardless. Back then, trust me many many pills were snorted. Even vicodin, as pathetic and nasty as it is. Any benzo, any painkiller, ambien, wellbutrin, adderall, ketamine, ritalin, muscle relaxants, coke, one time i even remember blowing neurontin, and zoloft and paxil for ***** sake. SSRI's? Now that is sad (no pun intended). I knew nothing at that point about administration bioavailability, i do now though. As an early warning to anyone about to tell me how dumb I am/was for doing any of this, shut the **** up and get back to your cubicle.

After this period of my life, 31 on my ACT testing (chopped as **** during it too), got a web designing job at the age of 16, highschool teachers basically telling my parents that im some sort of a child genius. Sounds irrelevant, but im just adding that so no one jumps to conclusions or get some pre-conceived notion that all of that damaged my brain. I have no superiority complex fyi.

My real question is if any of the prior medications wih all those nasty binders and chemicals could have damaged my mucus membrane to the point of lowering the bioavailability of insufflation? What gave me the idea was one night where I blew 80 mg of oxycontin (which has an amazing bioavailability with insufflation since its pure oxycodon), then the next day i just popped an 80 (parachuted of course) and felt it way more. Many other experiences similar to this with different pharms.

1. No preaching

2. I am well aware of the grapefruit juice method

3. OTC please

I know of the best opiate potentiators whether OTC or prescription, but since benzos and opiates/opioids are CNS depressants would many opiate potentiators work for benzos(diazepam particularly)? And if so, which ones?

If you condone drugs, **** off:

1. I am prescribed

2. You can be happy sober

3. You lack experience with psychoactives

4. You are brainwashed by government propaganda

If you post an answer trying to counter anything ive said above in contempt, you have no life, and are wasting your time. A professional is welcome to provide information IF it is in good manner, im healthier than you most likely.

Thank You

Can i get an answer from someone with personal experience, no preaching or medical rumor bull****. I have heard from many that it is the fastest and most effective method. If you keep it under your tongue, once it has dissolved to powder do you keep that there for a little? How long exactly would you keep one (xanax, klonopin) under your tongue for the best effects? I hear that it works only for a select few of benzos (the ones i noted), but would it work for valium 10 mg as well though?