pickles

well there is a boy who i dont really care for all the time, yet he really likes me, but lately he has been growing on me, and all of the sudden he seems to not care for me

i havent been acting any differently(ive always been nice and acted like myself with him)

but he seems to just not really care anymore

hmmm, is it because i asked him to hang out before he asked me, or is it just because he has lost interest?

its bugging me lol

you are my biggest disappointment

my biggest threat

my enemy

you use to be the only thing keeping me going

you made me smile

you were my friend

even though you make me hate

and lower my self-esteem

i hope no one ever does

what you've done to me

im not having sex (im way too young)

but i was just wondering if it was still possible to get pregnant with both of those things

i heard there was still a chance

for me right now

im kind of pissed

so..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Myj-q0OpETk

"i cant control myself i f****** hate you"

like:

sad

angry

ect.

i hate feeling awkward...i feel helpless

lol

i go on twice a day on average

for like 30mins or 1 hour at a time

what is the longest time you've spent on the computer?

for me it was like 4 hours(i was talking to a friend, shut up lol)

i am now 14

i feel old

lol

how did you feel when you turned 14?

in the dreams i am right next to the tornado but it never hurts me, i always make it out alive, and people act like its no big deal

its every night i dream about this

but its never the same setting

and in the dreams im just running away from it

but it never touches me...

what do these dreams mean?

enough said^.^

this is just a poem that came to my mind today.....

YoU:::

sometimes i say you mean nothing to me

because i think i mean nothing to you

sometimes youre the person i hate to see

because i dont think you want to see me

sometimes i will call you best friend

because i want to hear that im yours too

but you never say a word

so i shrug my shoulders

and i say

you mean nothing to me anyway

this is the time to get all of those feelings off of your chest

ill go first

im tired of my friends who obviously do not care about of me

im sick of reaching out to them, all they do is spit on my thoughts and feelings

i wish i could be alone, and be comfortable being alone

all i want is my family to be happy and for me to be happy

i wish all of my friends would just finally end it so i wouldn't have to cry everyday wishing they would talk to me

i don't even know why i call them friends...they are nothing

i have no friends

see

now i feel better

this is your time to get all of your feelings off of your chest :D

mine's december

lol

*random*

mine are in the middle

their more towards big

but they arent too big

ive read around 100 pages of pure boring today

i deserve something lol

or worse they don't reply at all

its cool though

when i get upset i draw and create a masterpiece

so i guess its better that i get pi$$ed

so i can be more creative and emotional

mine is

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Juy_kLCV2_s

it is exactly how i feel day to day

(the guy singing, is explaining about how all of the people who have abandoned me and who are in the process of leaving me feel , the girl is singing about how i feel)