?

Problem is deciding, because i have had serious problems with anorexia, and bulimia, and even now go through spouts where i just dont eat for 3-5 days at a time.

But lately i swear even a coffee makes me look pregnant. And it didnt matter if i wasn't eating or not, it didnt really go away.

but i've been having abdomin pains, where it feels like my organs are all trying to flip them selves over, i cant decide if it was because i was hungry or not.

Im eating now though. sorta.

The other thing is my moods have been crazy, it doesnt help when im supposed to be on medication for manic bi-polar, but, my moods have been extra weird, like last night, i was perfectly happy, then suddenly i just started crying cause i felt like a failure... i hardly ever cry, i just get severly depressed. So that was weird. Or i get angry randomly, My sleeping has been shit, i have 13 hours of sleep in 9 days, then suddenly, all i want to do is sleep, and sleep and sleep, i literally dont feel energy or motivation to do anything.

Which i have had, with complete apitite loss, then sudden cravings for chocolate and salmon.

But i usually am too underweight to get pregnant, and my periods are the randomest thing ever. But when i was wondering why the fuck ive been feeling weird google said i might be pregnant. Im pretty sure its not true, but my tummy is weird, like thin at top, and fatter than normal near the flabby bit, not that mines that bad. but still.

I probably shouldn't waste my time on here and go get a pregnancy test... but i cant be.

I'd feel terrible if i am, cause i've been smoke cigs and weed, uhh, and doing xtc.

Im still a child myself, im 18. >.<

I dont know what are the chances?

How do create an empire?

I was going to just buy one on trade me and e-bay, but no one seems to have one listed.

Please give me all the advise, this is really important to me.

I have had litters of rats before, none this big, do i assist her in feeding the babies, or shall i just leave her to it? Shes very comfortable with me, and doesnt like it when im not near, Through the last days of her pregnancy she'd just want me to rub her belly the entire time, and shes not aggressive towards my hand being in the nest and handling the babies, in fact she licks my hand as she normally would, and starts bruxing.

So should a help her out with feeding or not, keeping in mind she only has 12 nipples?

Its autumn going into winter soon in NZ, and i was surprised to find such young babies, at this time of year.

The baby is about the size of a tennis ball and is quite healthy (from what i can see) and has a good appetite, i feed it some soaked kitten biscuits and it went straight into the dish without any hesitation.

its not very fearful of me, and i found it weird that its out in the daylight, but i know its probably because its young, and being used to sucking on mums milk during the day, so it just hasn't learnt that its nocturnal yet.

Considering the time of year, do you think this baby is ok on its own? I looked outside for any siblings or a mommy hedgehog but there was none that i could see.

Advise?

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I've seen most movies, but none of them actually scare me.

I love gore, (preferably believable gore)

And not too keen on aliens, the bore me.

movies about demons and **** usually would get to me, but really Paranormal Activity doesnt quite cut it. I was something that actually scare me.. cause i haven't been scared from a movie since i was 6.

I dont want suggestions like I am Legend, cause that just doesnt come under the genre in my books.

Kthnxbai.

A wild mice climbed into my rat cage, i watched it do this, and it lasted 3 seconds, my rat just instantly attacked and it was killed with in seconds.

Yet my rats are fine with say other baby rats and rats, what is it about mice that rats hate so much?

I've asked around with other rat owners and they say its not uncommon for them at least once during their owner ship of rats to find dead wild mice completely torn apart in their cage.

Today we got three Alpaca's. I get one of them, they are all boys, and my Alpaca is white and cute, Uhmmm i want to get him a pink halter, Because it will suit him and his funny little angry alpaca face.

But yes, i need a good name for him not something ridiculous like "Milky" or "Snowy" or "Feathers" thats silly.

Something more like Stan.

But not.

Coolthnxbye.

^^^^^

What can i put in to help the fudge, you know, be all fudge like and all?

I read somewhere that people suffering from eating disorders often also suffer from insomnia.

im curious to know and understand that link, as i have sufferd from chronic insomnia since i was a baby, aaaaand i currently have a eating disorder....

Its about a Panda and a Armadillo who go to a supermarket to get some bread to feed the ducks.

Like, i actually have to write a song on this sh*t.

I think i need help with this one.

Seriously, writing a song about a bird being hit by a small, but fast truck in space would be easier.

The problem is i dont have any "shortning" or what ever.

So i was woundering if i could just use just plain chocolate? your would it make my chocolate go flaky?

Please help >.<

I want to make strawberry royal icing, and i was wondering if i just add the strawberry essence instead of the lemon juice will it still go hard?

I've made chocolate chip cupcakes, and i think lemon with the chocolate would just taste wrong.

Please answer!

I want to get a inked paw print on my wrist, (blackened out or filled in) with a health + sign, not quite in the center of it. (the health sign will not be coloured, or blacked.)

I'm planning on getting it at the end of the year.

I want locating the tattoo on my left wrist.

The paw print is to represent my love of animals, and the health sign is to represent who i am, im a "healer".

In the next 5 years i plan on being a fully qualified pediatric nurse. But will this small tattoo prevent me finding a job as a pediatric nurse?

I hate drinking lots of water, and eating lots of food at one sitting.

If i do i feel so disgusting, and i puke, or my stomach rejects it, weather its food or water. why is this?

I eat lots too. like today i have had 5 fruit, breakfast cerial crackers with cheese and tomato, and lasagna.

Like my entire neck is itch from the plasters.

But im ment to have a plaster covering my dermal for at least two weeks.

What should i do?

As a victim of it, it sucks.

I hear it everyday, and it is a constant reminder.

Even though i was only 11 at the time, memorys of it runs through my mind like it was just yesterday.

I try to laugh it off, but it really gets to me.

I dont know how to say "please dont say that around me" because i dont want people to think i was a victim.

I used to go along with it ohkay... and was able to see a kinda funny side. But since my rapist is out of jail, and i see him round town, i have a fear, and now the jokes are all too real for me now.

Im 17, and i guess my friends just dont understand that sort of stuff.

What can i do?

I commented this on some randoms facebooks page (because he couldnt spell "Darling" and some how one question lead to another, and no one answered them), then decided it would be interesting to se how many people would read it, better yet how many who would actually answer my questions.

Yay for Facebook boredom. >.> I thought i spelt 'Facebook' wrong.. but it just need a capital 'F'.....

F you facebook or should i call you 'Facebook'? Or is that just what you want....?

Have you killed someone before?

Do you like birds?

There was this one bird, and it flew into the window and killed itself.

But it lived.

Its feathers are still attached to the window, do you want some?

I can make cheeseburgers. Vegetarian style, are you vegetarian?

Can you be a murderer and be vegetarian?

Is it even considered 'correct' to squish a sand fly if you're vegan? Cause i dont mind squishing them if they are stealing my bloods, because i need that to live you know, they cant just rob me of it. But i do feel bad killing flies... so i feed them to my frogs, i love my frogs... do you have frogs?

What do you think is more unlikley to bite, a fairy or a pixie?

Doe redbull really give you wiings? can you fly naturally?

Does batman like hawks? or does he eat them?

Do you know Mr. Potato head personally?

What exactly makes a kitty?

Why do people insist on nicknames?

Hunger is a funny feeling, sometimes im not hungry and my tummy is rumbling, other times im hungry.. but probably cause im bored, so i bake, what should i bake next, except for brownies, they are evil.

My rats are awesome, they are so very nice, not even scared of the vacume cleaner... but they dont like loud noises, why is that?

My dog is scared of lightning and my cat thinks hes a dog.... that reminds my, my other cat, who i had to put down at 15 yeard of age on the 24th december 2010 (two weeks after i had to put down my other dog), due to cancer and various other health issues, that i didnt want her to suffer from like to eat rabbit pellets.. is this because she couldnt smell because the cancer had eaten her nose?

Should i stop asking questions?

Are these the types of questions we are ment to ask god?

How do we prove that the bible was written by some delusional person that wanted to believe that there is somethng bigger out there?

Was his life crap?

I like god, but i dont believe in him, i think he is a figment of peoples imaginations, that brongs hope to them, gives them a reson to continue living. i believe thats a very good thing.

But i'd rather put faith in myself rather than someone who may or not exist, does anyone agree?

Sometimes water tastes funny, my water tastes great, how does yours taste?

I just went tramping for 2 days, yesterday i walked 8 hours in new tramping shoes, i got blisters then my shoes rubbed the backs of my feet raw, so today i walked back in bare feet, thankgoodness i tough feet. my feet are sore though, are yours?

This is a questions that always gets to me.

As of a few years ago, SPCA adoption would win this argument hands down as animals from there are in NEED of homes, as for purebreds will alway find a home.

Now days i find this argument difficult, as purchasing purebreds, but donating to the spca, shows i want to help the animals, but i don't condone careless breeding.

Pros i find of purchusing purebreds from a trusted breeder would be:

-I'd get breed of animal i want

-I'd have the right personality (according to breed not exact)

-Size and weight will be able to be measures, as from a puppy or kitten

-Puppies and Kittens will have had basic training and handling since birth.

-I'd have the dream animal/animals

Pros of adopting a puppy or kitten from the SPCA would be:

-helping another animal in need.

-possibly saving their life

-the surprise deal (you wont know what you have until they are older)

-Adopting that animal, will help other animals in their place.

-A animal is a animal, and it shouldn't really matter too much if its purebred or not.

-Cheaper

Cons of purchasing a Purebred are:

-more expensive

-More care is needed to meet the requirements of the breed

-1 less pound animal find a home.

Cons of adopting from the SPCA are:

-Dog may turn out to be smaller or larger than expected.

-Behavioral problems may occur

-Training may become difficult.

-Genetic illnesses that i am unaware of may occur

-Appear that you support the carelessness of adequate care of pets, who have not been fixed, causing unplanned pregnancy's.

Really im sort of stuck, maybe i could Adopt one and Purchase the other.

Im in love with large dogs such as American mastiffs, Leon berger, Great Danes, Bokovina Sheep dog.

and Love cats such as Sphyinx, snowshoe and Egyptian maus

But i would feel a little bit sad for the puppies in the pound.

I have owned two pound dogs before, and discovers that each of them have lots of little behavoural problems, from neglete and poor ownership.

What do you think?

This is a questions that always gets to me.

As of a few years ago, SPCA adoption would win this argument hands down as animals from there are in NEED of homes, as for purebreds will alway find a home.

Now days i find this argument difficult, as purchasing purebreds, but donating to the spca, shows i want to help the animals, but i don't condone careless breeding.

Pros i find of purchusing purebreds from a trusted breeder would be:

-I'd get breed of animal i want

-I'd have the right personality (according to breed not exact)

-Size and weight will be able to be measures, as from a puppy or kitten

-Puppies and Kittens will have had basic training and handling since birth.

-I'd have the dream animal/animals

Pros of adopting a puppy or kitten from the SPCA would be:

-helping another animal in need.

-possibly saving their life

-the surprise deal (you wont know what you have until they are older)

-Adopting that animal, will help other animals in their place.

-A animal is a animal, and it shouldn't really matter too much if its purebred or not.

-Cheaper

Cons of purchasing a Purebred are:

-more expensive

-More care is needed to meet the requirements of the breed

-1 less pound animal find a home.

Cons of adopting from the SPCA are:

-Dog may turn out to be smaller or larger than expected.

-Behavioral problems may occur

-Training may become difficult.

-Genetic illnesses that i am unaware of may occur

-Appear that you support the carelessness of adequate care of pets, who have not been fixed, causing unplanned pregnancy's.

Really im sort of stuck, maybe i could Adopt one and Purchase the other.

Im in love with large dogs such as American mastiffs, Leon berger, Great Danes, Bokovina Sheep dog.

and Love cats such as Sphyinx, snowshoe and Egyptian maus

But i would feel a little bit sad for the puppies in the pound.

I have owned two pound dogs before, and discovers that each of them have lots of little behavoural problems, from neglete and poor ownership.

What do you think?

After selling our old horse, i done a equestrian course, so i was daily always around horses, i rode a lovely Clydesdale named Tiny who was 17 hh

Built my confidence in riding and helped me a lot, now that my course is over i haven't touched a horse in three months and i think im going to go mad if i dont start riding again soon.

I have always loved tall horses, ever since i was a little girl, i love the tallest horse i can find.

Im looking around and im finding all these lovely natured horses, who would be perfect for my and the riding i want to do. .. problem is they are all over 16 hh an my mother doesnt want a horse taller than 15"3. that seriously is going to drive me mad!!!!!

(Reasoning behind this is because she wants to be able to get on the horse while not using something to get up on the horse for e.g standing on a bucket)

RRAAAGGEE!

I only might be able to convince her to get me a horse.. But who can i convince her to get a taller one?

At least 16 hh.

I meant she can always shorten the stirrups when shes already on? I dont know. Or am i the one being too fussy?

I guess whn it comes down to it, i just want to be able to ride a again, but its just making it a heap harder finding the perfect horse...for my mum who will only ride him or her once a week. .. but i spose shes paying.. but even when i said, "what if i pay for the horse" she said "no"

*sighs*

What should i do to. A) convince her to get a new horse, shes sitting on the fence about it still. B) convince her 16 hh is not too tall and C) or am i too fussy? Help please.