Nicole

Ok,I am a female and I have been with my fiancé have been together for going on three years august third of 2014.We started as a couple on august 3 2011 everything seemed fine at first.Then down the line in 2012 I found out that my fiancé which was my boyfriend at the time,tried to talk to a girl on Facebook .But it wasn't just one it was multiple girls,and on top of that these were girls he did want to have sex with or whom he did like in the past.I asked him if there was anything else I needed to know and I went on his Facebook and found out he tried to talk to more girls not after I mentioned it to him but before that.Recently I went on his twitter and found out he had liked this girl's tweaking video and said how much she caught his eye,then he tried sparking conversations with other girls too.Now I'm not sure if it's me over reacting because he did not cheat from what he told me ,but he tried to but the one girl he tried to hang out with said no.What if she would've said yes?I'm not sure if he is telling the truth because when I asked him is there anything else he said no,and when I asked him why he replied he didn't know why or because he was insecure.Sometimes I feel like I want some type of revenge not cheat but make him feel how I felt.I want to marry him but I just can't trust him,everywhere he goes I feel like he is cheating work,store,his friends house,I just can't take it anymore.He knows how I feel,this is a major part of my depression.What should I do?

I have had a problem with depression for so long,I am engaged and my fiancé doesn't even notice my depression.I can't talk to my family about it, because I think I am an outcast to them.I don't feel accepted by society either.I am trying to cope with not having friends,family,or a person who cares about me.I don't have money which no one does these days,but i have been to see doctors about how I am feeling.It just seems like everything is wrong,can't find a decent job,can't finish my school next semester,I'm about to lose everything.I know someone has been here and done that .First it seemed like I was angry all the time now it seems as if I have been yelling to long and no one listened to me and now I'm getting depressed.I know hobbies are a good way to relieve stress and all but cleaning and writing are now played out.Thank you