that cool girl named Cindy

It's 4am where I am and I'm very, very tired. I can't get to sleep until basically a half an hour to an hour of trying to sleep. Some nights I don't feel tired at all until at least 6am, and it's a lost cause for me to try to get to sleep when I'm not tired enough. Those nights I can spend hours tossing and turning on my bed. I'm tossing and turning every night, actually, some nights are worse than others. My body also refuses to let me sleep past 6 hours of sleep. I'm also always tired during the day, though some days are worse than others. Even when I was a little kid I'd toss and turn and whenever I'd sleep in my moms bed with her, she'd always fall asleep at least an hour or two before me. Same with whenever I sleep away from home, I'm always the last person to be able to fall asleep, even if I'm the first person to start trying to sleep. I'm sick of this, and I'm really thinking it could be insomnia.

I can't seem to cheer up, even when I'm watching my favorite comedy. My dad's been in prison for over a year now, and I only got to visit him once, and talk to him twice over the phone, while he calls my step mom every day. Sorry, I'm just a little mad about that.. Anyway, how can I keep my mind occupied?

She's really awesome, usually, but she gets on my nerves at times. She's very, very stubborn, which isn't always a bad thing, but it gets annoying. We have a few opposite views, and I can't even get her to begin to see things my way. She knows I like Art, English and Physical Education, while she hates all three of them, and she likes my least favorite subject in school, which is Math. I get so annoyed with her when she complains how much she hates the subjects I like, because she won't accept my views AT ALL, while I accept why she likes Math, and I literally had to explain why that annoyed me so much, how I get mad at her when she complains about the things I like, while she doesn't get mad at me. She even told me that she doesn't understand how math can be hard for people, while I've told her many times that I'm bad at Math, and how math is my worst subject. She also says she's just "average" and won't accept it while I call her smart, even though she's in the top 10% of our class and gets straight A's. I hate it when she says that she's just average, because I get B's or C's usually, so that makes me feel like a complete idiot, no doubt. Also, she finds gays and lesbians weird and creepy, and she thinks it should still be classified as a mental disorder to be homosexual. I have a lesbian cousin, and I don't even know if I'm fully straight, so that gets on my nerves so much. She also thinks that everyone who hunts should get killed themselves, unless they literally have to hunt to survive, and when I told her that so much of my family has hunted before, she said that they should all get killed, including my dad who went hunting before, because she doesn't care. That probably pissed me off the most. It also makes me mad how I try to see her side of things while she doesn't even try to see my side of things, not even an attempt. Those are just a few things that drive me crazy with her. I would talk about this to her, but I know she wouldn't listen. Oh, and she also doesn't trust Muslims that much since 9/11, she thinks they're all the same, AND she thinks all African Americans are loud and obnoxious too, just because all of them that she's met are like that. She also hates people before she even gets the chance to get to know them, and she is a pessimist, but she keeps denying it, saying she's being a "realist", and I'm trying to get over depression too. I still do want to be friends with her, other than those things she's a pretty good friend, really funny and stuff, really trustworthy. I just don't want our obvious opposite views to get in the way of that. Yeah, I get annoyed and mad at her, but... since she's so stubborn, I just don't know how to keep avoiding those subjects, and I don't want our friendship to end just like that. We laugh together a lot, and we keep doing fun things together too. She's really fun to be around. Can someone give me advice?

It's spring break, and I've been too sick to do anything productive. I'm getting restless, because I haven't been able to go outside or be active without coughing a lot afterwards, and when I laugh, I usually start coughing. I want to enjoy my spring break and get better at the same time. I've been confined to just sitting or laying around because I don't want to cough so much my throat ends up killing me or so I'm not on the verge of throwing up because of coughing so much. My mom even thinks I might have bronchitis, which'll be fun... Anyway, how can I have fun even though I'm sick?

I'm already over the bullying that happened to me Kindergarten-7th grade. But... I got bullied so badly in 8th and 9th grade (I think that's part of the reason the past bullying doesn't seem so bad). Somewhat in 10th. I got harassed, humiliated, teased, laughed at, I got death threats in 8th grade. I got bullied by 6 people in 8th grade. Then I continued getting bullied by four of them in 9th grade, and then down to three in 10th grade, and now in 11th grade, none. But I feel so awkward, so stiff and so angry at the people who bullied me still. I also still have flashbacks, and I just want to live past this crap. 8th grade was the hardest in terms of life and bullying. I just moved to where I am now, and I get bullied by 6 people. Lovely way to start out... Because of that, I just want to leave again :(. Can someone give me advice to hopefully just maybe put it behind me?

I want to be an author, and it disappoints me that vampire novels are always considered "cliché" and nobody should write them anymore. I personally love vampires. Vampires like Dracula, the ones in Underworld, or any movie or story like that. Vampires have to be my favorite supernatural creature, and I'd love to write a book in the viewpoint of a vampire.

I'm 17, so I'm graduating next year. I'm planning on going into the Air Force after I graduate. I have about 16 or more veterans in my family, and more than one of them have been in the Air Force. My great great uncle was a Colonel in the Air Force. Can any of you guys give me any advice? I'd really appreciate it

I have ADHD, Anxiety and Depression. I also want to be in the Air Force really badly. I know how to overcome Anxiety and Depression, and I still have over a year before I graduate and am even able to join.. But is it possible to overcome ADHD? Because I've done so much research on the Air Force, and the more I learn about it, the more I want to be in it.. But is it even possible to overcome ADHD, and if it is possible, does anyone have any advice? I'm thankful to all of you that answer, I just want to overcome these issues before it's just too late

My dad's in prison and I haven't seen him since June. My step mom and step sisters are also coming to my house tonight to see him on Saturday, while I can't because the application for me to visit hasn't been approved yet. I'm absolutely crushed, as you can tell. They've all seen my dad SO MUCH compared to me. Used to be once a week, then about two times a month, and now like once a month.. But I didn't get to see my dad at all, and I really miss him.. I feel like I could burst out crying at any moment now. I miss my dad, and this isn't even the first time he's been in prison. :( I'm at school and I tried to see my counselor, but she wasn't in her room. :(

I was planning on bringing in cupcakes for my whole home room for my birthday today, and a few of my friends and teachers. Do you think this is childish or an awesome idea..? I've been thinking about it

I've had anger management issues since I was younger. I'm seeing a therapist and a psychiatrist. I also have Depression and Anxiety. Though, I scare myself sometimes. I catch myself thinking about killing a guy that bullied me for 2 1/2 years, and I sit behind another guy that used to bully me, but not an 1/8 of how badly the other guy treated me, and I just imagine myself reaching my hands around his neck and strangling him at times. For the first guy I mentioned though, he caused me so much fear, pain, humiliation, anger... Even after he's done being mean to me (I think he's done...) he's really obnoxious with his friends and disrespectful to teachers he doesn't like and stuff, and I still have to hold myself back so I don't beat the sh*t out of him. I just want to know a healthy way to get over all the anger he's caused me, so I don't do anything bad or reckless. I really don't want to be a bad person.

Some of mine as examples

Aries- I knew an Aries guy, and he was pretty unpredictable and loved running, he also liked to ram my head into the drinking fountain at school... Ouch... Needless to say, I didn't really like him

Taurus- I had a Taurus best friend, he had a huge crush on me, but I had to break up the friendship because he was giving me stalker-y vibes..

Gemini- oh god... Where do I start, my alcoholic dad is a Gemini, so is one of my friends, AND the guy I hate the most are all Geminis

Cancer- my two best friends :) I've been mad at both of them, but they are both very different from each other

Leo- I knew a stereotypical Leo guy once... It was fun, alright

Virgo- I had a Virgo best friend before :) but on the other hand, I got death threats from another Virgo...

Scorpio- no bad experiences with Scorpios, my sisters a Scorpio and she's amazing :)

Sagittarius- I know a stereotypical Sagittarius guy, I don't like him, he bullied me for a time

Capricorn: my sign :)

I know, neither gender has it easier than the other, it just tires me out... I really don't feel that attractive, and yet guys keep hitting on me, at the most random times, and I still can't get a boyfriend :/ I'm also scared to wear a tank top at school without anything over it because I don't want people to think I'm a slut. I also hate my time of the month -.- it caused me massive embarrassment at school before... And I also had to listen to this guy who bullied me pretty damn badly at the time, saying how he'd DEFINITELY win in a fight against me, just because I'm a girl and he's a guy. I was so tempted to get up and have him prove that he was stronger than me, by giving him a hard punch, but we were in class (I'm sure I could've kicked his a$$ though). What are some awesome things about being a girl?

It was so bad for me in 8th and 9th grade. Pure torture. I'm in 11th grade and these horrid memories are still flowing through my brain. I can't bring myself to forgive anyone. In 8th grade, I was the new girl. I also got bullied by 6 people. I got harassed, humiliated, teased, taunted, every single day. I even got physical bullied slightly by one of them, AND I got Death threats from another one of them. In 9th grade, one of them (the worst one of the 6), continued bullying me. Following me around after lunch, humiliating me, harassing me still, he even sexually harassed me a bit, bossed me around (not nearly as much as 8th grade though), called me "b*tch" once in a while, and so much more happened within those two years too, I just don't have enough space to tell you guys everything. But that's the overview of what happened basically. Certain things I see/read trigger these memories, sometimes when I even see the guys who bullied me still. Please help... I can't stand this :(

I'm going into Algebra 2, and I don't feel ready at all. I'm horrible at math, absolutely horrible. I'm in 11th grade, and I just don't like math at all. It's too much work, requires too much brain power, ect. How do I get better at math? Algebra 2 seems sooo hard.

I hate this guy in my grade. So, so, so much. I just want to strangle him. He's so loud, obnoxious, mean, moronic... He made my life absolute hell in 8th and 9th grade, and he apologized last year (I doubt it was sincere, the next day he was mean to me but hasn't been mean since). I still despise the guy. Whether he intends to be mean to me or not still, I just want to forget all the pain, misery, fear, and anger he's caused me. He physically bullied me (only a bit in 8th grade), verbally bullied me, followed me after lunch, pretty much sexually harassed me with words, humiliated me... There are so many things he's done I couldn't possibly name them all. In his apology (which he sent over Facebook), he said that he just wants us to put this behind us and leave each other alone, but it's so hard to forget and move on, He also made my Anxiety and Depression worse. I don't want to feel angry anymore, I do want to put this behind me, but it's really difficult... Someone, please help :/

I'm just wondering. It seems like if a white person says ANYTHING bad about someone of a different race, whether it was intentionally racist or not meaning to be racist at all, someone always says "It's because they're (insert race here) isn't it?" I personally am not racist at all. People can't control their skin color, but people can choose their attitude. While, I saw people freely bashing on white people, being really hateful towards them, and nobody said anything. I know, white people have a really bad past, with slavery, the holocaust, ect. but there were always good white people along with the bad, same with any other race. I just don't understand how it's more acceptable to be mean to white people than any other race. Yeah, some white people are racist, but there's plenty of discrimination against white people because of how some of us used to act. I just don't understand it. White people are human just like any other race, we're not any better or any worse. I just don't get it. I really hate how bad some white people used to be, I really do, I'm ashamed. :/

I'm writing a book where my main characters a half demon. His dads the demon, and his moms a human. It's against the law for demons to fall in love with- or have kids with humans. My main character ends up making friends with a full demon, and a full human, but his human friend doesn't have an idea that her two friends are half demon and full demon. The demon friend tries to keep my main character updated what's going on with demons, just so he can know if anythings going on, considering he's not allowed to exist in the demon world, and demons do eventually hunt my main character down. What are some powers he could have as a half demon?

I'm going into my junior year, tomorrow. I'm so nervous because people keep saying its the hardest year of high school, and I get picked on a lot at school. The guys that pick on me, I'm sure college is the last thing on their minds. But, I know I definitely want to go to college... I get stressed pretty easily too.. I'm nervous. Please give me tips so I can survive this year, I'm also going through a lot at home too, but ugh.. Please give me tips so I can go through this year :)

I feel so bad about cutting myself again, and before anyone says anything, I don't freaking cut for attention, I never want to show anyone my cuts or anything, I only cut when I'm really overwhelmed, and the last thing I want is people seeing my cuts. It gets me so annoyed when people say people only cut for attention, I personally do it because, I admit, I don't handle my emotions well, at all, and I feel so overwhelmed, and I'm not in the mood for any mean/rude comments, I feel so upset right now :( here's what's going on in my life:

-My dad got arrested for DWI charges, again, right after a felony and he broke his patrol with only a year left, and after 3 court dates, we still have NO idea what's going to happen with him (me, my step mom, step siblings and little sister) and we're all really upset this happened, and my dads already got arrested 6 or 7 times before this for DWI charges

-Schools starting again on September 3rd, and I feel so hated and alone at school, and I get picked on constantly

-it just passed my grandma Janes birthday, and she died October 8th of last year and I told her everything, I felt so close to her.. When I got death threats in 8th grade, she was the very first person I showed, she protected me from my dad back when I was younger (he USED to be a bad guy, but my dads a way better person now), and she's done a lot more for me, and I still feel heartbroken that she's gone

-I'm worried about my sister because her mom is a huge b*tch, always yelling at her, treating her like crap, neglecting her, and child protection services are watching in on them, and I'm worried about what'll happen with that

I just don't know what else to tell you guys, this is probably one of the most stressful and hard moments of my life, and I know if a certain guy even gets a single glimpse of my wrist where I cut myself, he'll pick on me calling me "emo" and stuff to no end, and I just feel so overwhelmed right now, it's not even funny :(