Angela

Now that I look back on my life, I might have had this disorder since 6th grade. I always thought that something was wrong with me, and now i don't know if i should be glad that there might be a solution or sad because the solution is something that's not too thrilling. It seems like my life is literally a roller coaster. Sometimes I am as high as a mountain but then other times i feel like jumping off a cliff. And it seems to me like my mood changes on a weekly bases. or bi weekly. For an entire week i will be extremely happy. Those are the good weeks when i get my homework done and hang out with my friends and make plans. Other weeks im in my bed right after coming home from school and i try to avoid people. I cant control it. Sometimes it even goes as far as me feeling suicidal. It is very scary. I hate living this life. I just want to be happy and myself all the day, every single day. But im serious when i say i can not control. Even faking being happy doesn't work when im in the depressive mood.

I wish that one day my breasts will just shrink. Ever since I was a little girl, I noticed that my chest size was bigger than the other girls my age. Now I am 17, size F in bra size and only 130lbs. Also im 5'2 in height. I cry about every single day wishing and praying to my God in heaven to help me in some way achieve my goal of having a smaller bust. Im so sad knowing there is nothing I can do about it right now. My mom does not believe in having surgery done if it has nothing to do with a life threathening situation and even when I turn 18, the chances of me getting accepted for a bank loan is little to impossible. That means I have to wait till around 21 or 22 to get a loan and then get my breast reduction. I am mentally and physically miserable in my everyday life. I just wish and pray that soon rather than later my wish will comee true. Honestly I don't even have a question, I just needed a place to vent. Please pray for me

PS: my insurance is masshealth so I doubt that even when I turn 18 my insurance will cover it!

Yesterday while eating finger food, my little brother came into the kitchen crying that he wanted me to zip up the pants that he was wearing. I told him he has to wait, but him wanting what he wants when he wants it he proceeds to cry. He lays on the kitchen floor and my older brother (mind you he could have zipped up the pants but NOOOOO not in this house. I'm the only one who watches and takes care of my little brother). Two minutes later my mom walks in with someone. I didn't know who it was because i was still in the kitchen. I find out later that its my Pastor. Him and my mom then continue to talk for legit 15 minutes about how badly we treated my little brother. Because what they saw was an almost 4 year old child on the couch in the living room all by himself with his pants off. This was the first time my Pastor had been to my house and now I feel as if he thinks this is how I am. A mean and bad person!!! I'm so ashamed and mad. Mad that I'm actually a good sister but first impression is everything right? And ashamed because how am I suppose to face him now that he thinks I'm a "certain" way. How do I get over this???? Life is not fair, like they say.

I hate my life so much. I feel like nothing ever goes right with me and my family. We're broke as a joke and live in a shitty ***

place while my extended family members all live in a nice house. But that's not what bothers me, what bothers me is my physical appearance. I think I am sooooo ugly. It's gotten to the point where today I didn't want to go the the store because I didn't want people to see me!!!! What? And I hate when propel say love yourself! It's hard to love yourself when your sclera is a nasty off white yellowyy brown spotted color. To make it worst I have YELLOW teeth. Not from drinking too much tea or coffee or smoking but naturally yellow teeth!! Everytime a baby tooth would fall out, the adult one grew in yellow. I can't even smile in public, what a horrible life. And my breast size are Fs and I'm only 17 years old. People don't know how good they have it. I think I'm sooooo ugly and God doesn't listen to my prayers so I've kinda given up

So if Physician Assistant is a graduate program what do i need to major in while in college to get my bachelors degree in order to move on to a Physician Assistant program for my masters? I don't get the whole concept of BECOMING a PA!

I am so confused on SIU Carbondales majors. Does SIU Offer a Physician Assistant program or not? and for anyone that's been to SIU, what is your opinion on the school?

For the first time ever I did my own acrylic nails. But I didnt realize till I was done that I got some on my skin. It is stuck on my skin and I dont know what to do. Can someone please help me ?

This has happened 4 times in the last year. Yesterday's being the most recent. I was cleaning the bathroom sink when all of a sudden I got really lightheaded. I though I was tired so I just stood there and waited for it to go away. But then I started to get dizzy and my heart began beating really fast. I then felt sick to my stomach and felt like I had to puke. My head began to spin and my eyes rolled into the back of my head. Then I collapsed. I didn't faint but I couldn't stand up any longer or even think for that fact. I had to lie down for about 5 minutes before I got better. Each time I experience an episode like this the same thing happens. Can anyone help me figure out why this is happening ?

Sorry. I know this may sound stupid but i honestly don't get it when people say they are going to business school or going to school to be in business. I mean does it mean you go to college to learn how to start your own business? Does the school help you with ideas you can come up with to make a successful business? I've wanted to be a doctor for as long as I can remember but after doing research on it and realizing the whole process of getting into MEDSchool and getting a good grade on the MCAT is too excruciating, I decided to check out business. So now I'm thinking about going into business BUT the problem is I don't get it....!

I'm from a country called Ghana which is in west of Africa. I'm 16 and I was born here in america but i have lived in Ghana before for about 4 years from ages 1-5. It seems every Ghanaian girl i meet ends up not liking me. I don't know why. For example almost all my cousins that have just come from Ghana don't like me, they give me attitude every time they see me. It hurts though...it really does. I try to be nice to them and I act really friendly and happy whenever I'm around them but they seem to just look the other way and kind of blow me off. I hate family parties and things like that because I know I'm going to see them there and they are going to be rude to me and ignore me. I had a sweet 16 about 4 months ago and when my cousins came they had the audacity to not even say hi to me while AT MY PARTY, Ghanaian boys don't mind me...I actually get along with them more then the girls. And adults love me (I think so lol) so it cant be that my cousins don't like me because of my personality. I just don't know. I wish they would accept me and love me the way I love them.

People always say if your boobs are big they will stay big and wont shrink no matter what because its genetics. But yet 1/3 of what makes up breasts is fat so cant it be lost which then means cant breasts become smaller? Im confused!

Im having a sweet sixteen coming up. I live in Framingham Ma. I need dresses for the court and i dont want to order the dresses online because i dont want them to come out horrible or too small or big so i want to go to a store with the girls in my court and have them try the dresses on themselfs.Does anyone know a warehouse store that in middlesex county in MA. or near Framingham?

When I watched the video for the Kony 2012 thing, it said that I can send money to them to support them to find this evil guy named Kony but they didn't mention the address so does anyone know the address in which i can send the money to or anywhere I can find it?

Yesterday i was on my blog and then all of a sudden there was this notification from tumblr saying there is something suspicious going on and that i needed to reset my password. So i did what it told me to do and when i went back on my page my theme was deleted. I tryed refreshing and logging out and things thinking maybe its just for now. NOPE. its gone. vanished. deleted for no reason. Im loosing followers because they think that i just wanted to change my blog around. My mom wont give me her credit card to get the theme again.so please can someone send me the code. please? im desperate here .

Every where I go I hear people talking about the PIPA & SOPA Bill but i have no clue still what they mean.

Okay! There are these two girls name margret and emily. Me and emily use to be best friends in 5th,6th, and 7th grade. In 8th grade we moved on to new bestfriends but we were still corgel with each other. For 9th grade I went to a different school but decided to come back in 10th grade. Im in 10th right now. But for some reason i noticed that emily was being meaner and meaner to me for no reason. I didnt do anything to her. I couldnt have anyway . We never talked once in 9th grade and in 8th we were nice to each other. All i know is she has these witty comments that in a way she uses to belittle me. Ive noticed it for a while but i still try to talk to her and be nice. Then there is her new bestfriend margret and margret is so mean to me. My breaking point was when she was we were walking with this other friend named lilly in the hall this week wednesday and while walking i smelled perfume. and i was like "oh someone smells good" and this ***** is like "its called perfume you should try some". Im trying to be nice. I quit. No more. But what i wanna know is should i be mean to them or should i just start ignoring them? Theyve never actually like been hardcore mean but i dont know how to explain....they just say some stuff and do stuff and ignore me knowing its gonna hurt my feelings.

Alright! I am in 10th grade. For 9th grade I went to a technical high school. But i transferred back in to a regular high school for 10th grade because People keep saying you cant go to a good college if you go to a technical high school. The thing is when i grow up I want to be a pediatrician or a nurse and that i need to go to college for. I hate my regular high school but i want to go to college. Can anyone help me on giving me advice on whether i should go to the tech or stay in the regular high school.

She bites anything from a pencil to leather to nail caps, shirts, paper, fingernails, remotes, phones, cups, books, glasses, eyeglasses, or the caps on anything in general like markers...ANYTHING!

She bites anything from a pencil to leather to nail caps, shirts, paper, fingernails, remotes, phones, cups, books, glasses, eyeglasses, or the caps on anything in general like markers...ANYTHING!

I hate my eyes. I mean the white part of my eyes are not even white. Theyre like a light yellow kinda of color. Its embarresing. And Im healthy, I excercise, and Im only 15! so I dont know why its not white.