~ Ethos

I m 21 and transferred from community college to my university so while I should be a senior I m a semester behind. I do fairly well grade wise so I m not failing school. What makes me feel like a failure is the fact that I m turning 22 still have no friends, I ve never felt like I could connect as well as I should with my family, I couldn t live on my own even if my life depended on it, and I literally can t even get a part time low level job.

I don t want to wallow in the details trying to explain I feel incompetent but you get the point. I feel like I don t really fit in any where. I had a job at a grocery store bagging groceries and have applied to countless other jobs but can t get anywhere. I m an English major and I don t feel I could do anything without my bachelor s but I m increasingly feeling like school doesn t matter. I was seeing a therapist but she wasn t helping me. I want to find another therapist but despite being 21 I have to have mama do all the **** (meant to express my annoyance).

I know I m all over the map but if you have any advice or anecdotes I d very much appreciate them. I don t entirely care that I m single but the lack of actual friends does get to me and work is a sensible topic to me.

Notes about me

I m English major, philosophy minor and am debating adding a theater minor (I did say I m getting tired of school so while a theater minor seems fun, I wouldn t mind ending school asap)

21 turning 22 soon.

Whenever you can't sleep and lay around with thoughta racing? I'm curious. Me it's mainly life and death.

I want to say the answer is Ajax but I could be wrong...

I know Prometheus stood up against Zeus.

I'm starting to debate having a night with an escort. Realistically I most likely won't and most everybody will answer "don't do it"... But I'm looking for serious answers here. I'm looking for advice.

Yes I am a virgin.

No I am not Catholic.

I want to start submitting pictures on-line. The one website asked for a link to a website. They didn't specify a website. I've seen portfolio style websites which look nice.

I'm really only asking for advice on website displays for picture submissions. Advice would be much appreciated.

I'm debating going to Bartending school but I wanted to put prices into perspective. Right now at my crap dead end job I get payed minimum. But tuition to this bartending school (Mixology) is 800 so I don't entirely want to leap into this. Could you give a range a bartender may make also any advice, should I, shouldn't I? I'm a college student and for some reason I can't get out of this crap job.

I feel like smoking pot and gazing at the empty space in my room.

Anybody want to join?

I have an Asus laptop

2 years old

While on it runs fine

When I bump the backscreen while the power is on the screen breaks (like how old tvs looked "snowy")

Now whenever I close the screen (to put it into sleep) it won't come back on: The screen goes blank but it says the backlight and connection and power remain on. I tap any letter key and there's a ding sound but otherwise the keyboard loses function. There's nothing I can do when this happens so I have to do a hard shut off. This has happened a few times already.

I'm looking for serious answers. I know the best thing I could do is to take it to an expert or to BestBuy but I'm looking for some advice on here first.

Also my biggest concern is losing my photo and word documents so I was going to look for a backup. I have an external hard drive but I was recently recommended to also use a Cloud service. If you have advice on which Cloud (Google, Microsoft, etc) I should or shouldn't use thatd be appreciated.

Thanks in advance.

I set up an email account to use only for school but problem is I cant remember what my password is. I can get into my mail because I set it up with my Internet Explorer's mail bar with this account but outside of my Internet Explorer's mail bar I cant get into this account.

Is there a way I can reset my password to access this email easier?

I have Internet Explorer and Google Chrome.

I'm asking this question with Chrome.

I'm logged into this other email on Explorer.

Alcoholic drink.

I'm turning 21 soon so I want to start to explore the drinking world. I've drank a little with family but not much.

Death has commented on my past few answers....

And I'm no redhead.... I am partially color blind though...

I mean he used to be hot, now he's... colorful...

I've been thinking about getting a tattoo recently. I was looking online and found a few designs I like. Sleeves especially look great. Only thing is: Since this would be my first tattoo I'm hesitant and don't want to commit to full sleeves just yet. My question is what do you recommend for a first tattoo, or your advice anyways. Thanks in advance.

Or night if you're just waking up

My day was long, I'm going to bed, see you

I was born in the early 90s so most of the world I was too young to understand but as I'm starting to stretch out in terms of books and movies and seeing writers like Chuck Palahniuk and movies like Office Space I'm starting to see the 1990s as a very nihilistic time. What do you think? I know the Baby Boomers were 40s-60s so the 90s would've been the children of that generation.

This is just something I'm starting to see your opinions are appreciated.

Also I may not have the best section it may dip into history.

Knowledge is power but; machine guns are sheer force

I've been watching movies like Fight Club, Choke, American Beauty, Office Space, A Clockwork Orange and have enjoyed the nihilism of these movies (nihilism means lacking values, no good, no bad).

Now I'm looking for more movies like these. I would appreciate if you have any movie recommendations similar to the listed movies..