Aurora

I have been hurt many times in my life, in quite extreme ways. I was always very introverted and shy, but these days, and for a long time now, I am finding it really hard to like people at all. I don't want to be anywhere near most anyone.

I am a Christian, and have faith in God, but wonder how I can bring Him glory when I don't even want to be near people, and haven't found any way to be helpful or useful to others when I can't even trust them.

I had people lie about me, and so my foster children that we were trying to adopt were moved away - even though it was proven to be a lie, my daycare business was closed, and I now have no work - after trying to adopt due to infertility. That plus years of childhood abuse, and then seeing that many adults are abusive in their power (like the children's ministry) places me back in a place where I don't even feel comfortable being near people let alone trying to trust them again.

I know that God wants me to love people, and forgive them. It isn't that I struggle so much to forgive - others have their own issues, and I'm not perfect - but that I really am not able to trust any person enough to let them close enough to hurt me again. (not even a counselor) This makes it really hard for me to work at all, or even go outside where I might see my neighbours.

How can I be a Christian and not like people? How can I be a Christian and bring glory to God? I am a Christian, but I am even afraid to share that (not because I am ashamed of God, not at all, but because I fear that I will be another of those people who others look at and think, "if they are a Christian, than I don't want to be" and that my example will turn people away from Jesus rather than lead them closer.

Many years ago, I moved away from my family and friends to start a business. In the meantime, I got married, and he became the stepfather of my child. This is his home, and his family and friends are here. I have had a rough couple of years, and not only desire to be close to my family (who live thousands of miles away) but also feel very out of place in this community. I don't get along well with his family, and friends I have had here have moved away. I want to move back to my 'home' and so does my child, whose family lives there, too. My husband, as this is where his home, family and friends are, doesn't want to move.

Before we were married, he asked if I would want to move back there. At the time, things were going well for me here, and I couldn't imagine wanting to go back. A lot has happened since then, and I don't feel I have a future here. I understand his side. I am not sure what to do. I love my husband, and don't want to leave him, it is not part of our faith - and he is a good man, so I've no reason to leave. We have both had a rough time these past couple of years. His support is here, and that has helped him get through this and move on. I have no support here, and will likely continue to struggle with that for a long time, if not for the rest of my life. We don't have the money for me to travel back and forth to visit my family, and that wouldn't be enough, anyway. I gave up my business years ago, as we pursued other paths in our marriage, and now have no work when I need it. I know I would be able to work living where I come from (a much bigger city). He has work here, and doesn't like change at all.

What is there to do?

I have severe food allergies, and want to build a small second kitchen into my house for my family to cook their meals containing eggs or cheese. I was wondering if we could use the outlet for our clothes dryer (usually hang dry anyway) for an oven, or if we would have to have another outlet added for it? Also, is an overhead range difficult to install? What sort of cost are we looking at for this? We are in Canada.

We have a mortgage through our local credit union. The challenge is, both my husband and I are unemployed, and there are few jobs in our small town. The mortgage company said if we were to sell and move, they would transfer our mortgage, but if we were to pay off our mortgage, there would be high penalties as they would lose out on interest. My question is, if we moved to another city or province (my family lives in Ontario, we are in BC) could our mortgage transfer over without penalty? or would we have to switch institutions and pay the penalty to our credit union?

I need to get a job, though I am strongly introverted (though not good with computers, art, graphics, etc.) with social phobia (bad enough that I get very sick, and offend people by my anxiety if I deal with people even briefly a couple times a week) and some pretty severe allergies (have an epi pen for my egg allergy, so can't work in grocery stores, restaurants, etc.) My degree is in child care, but after a painful loss of children (due to my anxiety) my husband and I were trying to adopt, and with my own infertility, I can't deal with other peoples children anymore. So I am needing something entry level as I don't have any skills for work outside of child care. (living in a very small town, in a suburb out of town.)

My son just bought the Guitar Hero Wireless Guitar Controller for Nintendo Wii on ebay for his Beatles rock band game that he got for Christmas. My concern is whether it is compatible with the Beatles rock band game. I don't want him to be out the shipping. He doesn't have any Guitar Hero games to use this with if it doesn't work with his Rock Band game.

I am a severe undiagnosed social phobic (strong reactions even to leaving my house or answering phones.) This has increased significantly both with age, and experience in going out. I am also a strong introvert, needing very little time with people outside of my family at all.

I am looking for job ideas that can be done in my home. I have tried child care, and pet care. I won't pay a person/company to start my business due to scams. I would really like to work, though. Does anyone have any ideas?

Over the past few months, I have felt incredibly irritated with my socks, tags in my clothing, and even my clothing itself. My skin even feels like an outfit that was put on but was several sizes too tight. I have no idea what might be causing this (no change in detergent, food, etc.) I am not A.D.H.D. or anything, this just came on suddenly during a stressful time, and hasn't gone away. Even touch from others is so irritating that I have to make them stop, and I pull away.

Any ideas on what might cause this?