miss shivi d

Okay so. I'm in High School. I'm a girl. I'm pretty dark skinned. And I'm Indian. But I don't think of myself as unattractive.

Lately I've been thinking about guys a lot, and I've never ever been that girl who spends her time daydreaming about boys. Seriously. I have a lot of priorities and guys usually aren't one of them.

But... lately... <3

Idk. I just have some questions now. Things I've been dying to know!

1) Are interracial couples weird? Would a guy hate to go out with a girl who is darker than them?

2) Do guys see every girl as a potential girlfriend? Like if a guy flirts with a girl is it because he sees her as a possibility? Or do guys just see them as friends only?

3) Are guys really that superficial..? Like I know looks matter but would a guy rather go out with a hot annoying girl than an average yet hillarious/smart/awesome girl? heehee

4) Do guys really think about sex that much?

5) As a girl, is it weird to make the first move?

Thanks for answering my questions!!! :) Sorry if they are awkward...

That's where my brother goes, and it is my dream to get accepted there. I dream about it every night.

I'm a Sophomore in High School. I'm Indian. I'm taking one honors class and one AP class. Last semester I got an unweighted G.P.A of 3.67 and weighted of 3.8. It's my stupid Honors English class. I'm learning a lot but it is such a hard class! I love English (its my favorite subject) but right now I feel like this class isn't worth it. I know I'm learning a lot but at the same time my friends are getting better G.P.A's than me and get to sleep a whole hour or two earlier.

I don't know. I'm stressing out! I want to get into Berkeley more than anything.

I play competitive tennis, and have a state ranking. Last year I got a 4.0. I play Piano and passed CM testing level 5 - I'm only at 5 still :( . I am a Girl Scout working towards my Gold Award. I'm working on a Science project to submit to Intel Science Fair. Right now I'm in a SAT prep class with an SAT score of only 1900 average...but I just started, and I'm aiming for a 2200 or higher. I'm taking the AP World test and World history subject test this year. And I'm taking four AP's next year. I've been taking vocal lessons for three years and plan to take four years of Choir in high school.

It sounds slightly impressive when I list it like that, but it really isn't! There are kids who are doing so much better than me. And the worse thing is my honors english teacher is giving me a C in the class right now... I'm doing so badly! Everyone else has A's.. I think she doesn't particularly like me but I know why- It's a long story.

Ugh I'm stressed and this isn't fair and I screw everything up! I'm wasting time asking Yahoo answers for help when I could be studying? See what I mean? What am I doing with my life? If I want to be successful I have to use every minute of my time effectively- especially if I screwed up during the beginning in my life by not accomplishing anything!

I am useless. I will not get into Berkeley. I am going to be a failure. I am the worst at my least favorite subject. I have a C in my honors English Class.

HOW AM I HUMAN BEING. I AM SO STUPID. :*(

I am a Girl Scout working towards my Gold Award project. I'm really passionate about music, as I believe it correlates with education and fosters learning abilities. I know that this is a time where schools and programs have to cut down to save money, and I know that music programs are usually the first on the chopping block. My girl scout project plan is to raise money to buy musical instruments or supplies and send it to a school or program in need. I cannot raise money and send merely that, I can only use money to send something. (This is one of the rules). So I live in Northern California, and I was wondering if anyone knows of some program that could really benefit from supplies. Preferably in San Francisco or Oakland? Or Hayward? Berkeley? Send me links or phone numbers?

Thank you!

I really am. My life is a joke. The fact that I used to consider myself to be an intelligent individual is just pathetic.

Here is some background.

I am a 15 year old Indian girl in sophomore year. My older Brother is at UC Berkeley. I am very stupid. I am taking one honors and one AP class, but my grades are horrible. I try, but I don't try hard enough. I feel like I don't have enough discipline, I do not manage my time well and I am not very intelligent or (as you can probably tell) articulate.

I have a B in my Chemistry class. I told my mom today and she started yelling at me. I always compare myself to others in my grade and I feel useless. I want to give up. They are doing so well and I'm not.

I feel stupid. I was working with my friend who's been on varsity tennis with me since last year (She's not very good, she's an alternate. Just saying. Because tennis is the ONLY thing I'm good at. I have a national ranking.), is the asb president, has a 4.2 (which for her is straight A's) and is pretty and has a lot of friends. (She doesn't even do anything to get ready. She is just naturally gorgeous.

I on the other hand and not pretty. I'm going through a rough, low-confidence patch in my life. I get distracted easily, like right now I'm on yahoo answers. I lack discipline. I give in to my emotions. I can hours whining and crying over the most useless things. Also if I am tired I give up and go to bed. My friends don't give up. The girl I'm friends with who's perfect never gives up. And she's do dang smart as well, if you talk to her.

I feel like giving up. My psat score is terrible, I don't try hard enough and act like I do. I make it seem like I'm working so hard but in reality compared to others I'm not. I spend too much time worrying about how I look, or about having a social life that I waste time. I feel useless.

I want to do well. I want to succeed. But I keep getting side tracked. My parents are angry at me. They love me but they tell me to try harder! and I want too! Except do I really? I don't know

I am confused. I am sad. I hate myself. I can't believe I just wasted 15 minutes typing this. I have sooo much homework. What am I doing? What am I doing with my life I HAVE A 3.6 GOD DAMMIT I SHOULD BE TRYING AS HARD AS SOME OF THE OTHER PEOPLE IN MY GRADE

but... It's too late. I'm not intelligent. I will never make it. I will never be happy. My life is a hamster wheel and I'm an obese hamster constantly complaining about how my life is too hard, when it's not. Anyone could step in my shoes and get better grades than me. I have to stop making excuses.

I have to do my work now.

But I don't want too. I am too frustrated and confused and listless. Maybe I have ADD. Great. Now to top it all off, not only am I a dark, fat unattractive baboon, I also am I ******* psychopath.

Help?

I am very superstitious I don't know why. Sometimes I put my iPod on shuffle, and I ask it questions. (It's answers are the songs) I always feel like it's right!! Well close to it. Most of the times.

Also I ask god signs every day. EX: today I asked that if this certain person was online he would ask me to the dance. If he wasn't that meant: don't even bother he's never going to be into you because you are too fat/ unattractive so don't even try to get his attention because he will hate you. He wasn't online.. and Im pretty sure that the second question is true because I am fat and ugly and my hair is gross and I'm very very dark :(

Oh well

Also im very shy. I think that maybe I'm using these "signs" as an excuse to stick to my comfort zone, but on the other hand maybe god is trying to give me these signs to keep from getting hurt.

I'm also extremely sensitive (I know what you're thinking.. Extremely sensitive, fat ugly chick? Been there seen that. but don't stereotype me like that!) and this guy is kind of a douche. Well at least he seems like it. But I wouldn't know because I'm too scared and unconfident to find out.

But what if I'm right and he is a total douche and jokes to his friends how this fat ugly chick keeps trying to flirt with him? That might kill me.

Oh gosh I don't know.. God if someone answers my question in the next hour I'm being a complete psychopath.

SHOOT I neeeed to stop doing that!

Please answer you're question however you want. Say whatever you want I honestly don't care. I'm open to opinions. Btw I'm not Christian, and also dont' be mean because I wasn't lying about the sensitive part. And honestly do you feel better about yourselves when you make fun of some one online? really? Wow how pathetic. And I swear I'm not crazy.. all these thoughts just built up in my head and I sort of tried to put them all into one question. Answer it however you want.

Thanks!

Just wondering. I am 5'4" and I weigh 114 pounds..In America that's considered okay.. but the thing is that's AMERICA. Aren't we part of the fattest country on the planet? God. I think my fat is disgusting how much all of us (including myself... I'm the biggest sucker for food here seriously) is disgusting and how many fast food and restaurants we have in America is just like, seriously??

I feel like if someone of my weight would go to Europe and appear really fat to the people there. Isn't the average American a fat European or something? Ugh. I hate being fat. I'm going to try to be healthier!! *Dumps Ben & Jerry's in the trash*

Today I ate

One bowl of honey nut cheerios

One peanut butter sandwich on wheat bread

One skinny cow ice cream sandwich (140 cal.)

One chips ahoy pack (100 cal)

One bowl of indian food for dinner. (sambar and pongal for any indians out there)

And then a bunch of fruit in between:

One white peach

Bowl of green grapes

One apple

One banana

This was ALL after 5 o clock

could eating this much fruit in such small time make me fat? Don't make fun of me, I'm just wondering!!!

I am 115 pounds, 5' 4" and I played two hours of rigorous. and I mean running all over the court rigorous. tennis. today.

I am really, really, really good at tennis. I am letting you know this because its the one thing I'm good at. so I'm gonna brag about it to you people.

THANKS FOR ANSWERING MY QUESTION

10 points to the weirdest place!

I am 5' 4" and 119 pounds. Okay don't judge me. I know I'm fat but I'm working on it!! Ugh but food is ALWAYS on my mind. Seriously. It's becoming sick. I read this article in Seventeen and now I'm scared that I'm addicted to food. Actually the scariest part is that I'm honestly a little relieved, because If I've become addicted to food then (than? I don't get the difference. explain it to me :)? at least I have an excuse for doing what I do.

So it all started with this Fiber cereal my mom got me that I found AMAZINGGGG. I would eat two bowls a day, one for breakfast and one for snack. Even if I wasn't hungry for the snack, I usually never am, I just got so used to the idea of food and loved tasting it and eating it even though I wouldn't even be hungry. I've always tended to eat when I'm not hungry so I thought it was no biggie, but it came to the point where I used to be excited at nighttime because in the morning I would get up and be able to eat the cereal that I loved !

Then it started occurring with other food. So basically food, weight, calories, nutrition, its ALWAYS on my mind. Seriously. I'm thinking about how much fun it would be to go get some pasta. and Just hear what I had for dinner: Half a peanut butter sandwich, grapes, two orange slices, two of those cheese wheel thingies, and a bowl of fried rice. a BIG bowl even. True I had just worked out before, because I AM an athelete. I just got back from running three or more miles and tennis practice, but honestly that probably only burned about 300 calories from that. right? and I ate about what? 1000? maybe even more. I am soooo full right now. But all I can think about is cereal. waffles. cupcakes. ice cream. chocolate. muffins. UGH I am as FAT AS A WHALE and I don't know what to do

help me.

its SICK.

What do you think?

Objectification of women in the American society is __________.

Which do you think is weirder for say.. high school?

If the guy is younger or older? Any why?? and what are like the age limits? Do you think a freshman can go out with a senior or is that just toooo weird? And what about an eighth grade guy with a freshman girl? thats just plain weird isn't it? Or what.?

just wondering! say whatever.

I was hooked, i could not stop reading it.

What were your thoughts? Any thoughts on the book? It was pretty sad. I cried alot...but it was so REAL. You know what I mean?

Sometimes I had to remind myself that it wasn't real. Isn't that just pathetic?

Well. anyways. what were your thoughts?

I'm a freshman in high school, and I have write and essay and do a book report on The Lovely Bones for Honors English, which I NEED to be killer.

Have you read it? I'm a little confused. It's very deep and emotional, but I have no idea where to start with this. What do you consider the theme of this book? And symbols to be involved with that? I can't determine any symbols at this point, because I'm too confused. And I also don't completely understand the reference to the "lovely bones" in the story. Is it a metaphor comparing her family and connections to bones? But why bones? Because bones make up something larger like a skeleton, in the same way that her family makes up Susie? Isn't that what this book is about, her family and herself coming to terms with the incident? I have so many questions i think I should just make a list.

Okay here are my questions about things I didn't really understand in the novel:

1. What's the significance of Susie's last name Salmon? IS there significance?

2. Are George Harvey's actions justified? I don't think so, but many people do. Do you? Why???

3. What are some important symbols to look for and take note of in the book?

4. What do you think the theme of this book is? Why??

Thank you so much for helping me. ANY input is appreciated. Like seriously, I need ALL the help i can get. Even if it has nothing to do with my questions, because I don't really get this book anyways.. I don't think I read in depth enough. What do you think about this book? PLEASE ANSWER!

Its for my school project we are doing for a sort of career day thing. Please give me all your info AND SOURCES!! It would sooo helpful THANKS!

I am in the eighth grade and I have an essay on Anne Frank, and well, I'm totally confused. The prompt is: The Diary of Anne Frank ends with Anne's words, "In spite of everything, I still believe people are really good at heart". Many critics have acclaimed as well as criticized this idea. Anne's words are often debated. What is your opinion? Do you agree or disagree with Anne's opinion? Feel free to draw on other cultural/societal conflicts and/or events to help support your opinion.

So personally I agree, but feel free to disagree. But I can't seem to put my reasons into words. I just think that humans are truly born with good intentions for when we are children we are so pure and innocent and we lose those pure good intentions when we grow older, some faster then others. Maybe its just my imagination, but it feels that way. Also, some people are brought up in a troubled way or view frightening experiences that lead them to behave in certain ways. Another reason is that sometimes people think they are doing the right thing, for example Hitler thought that he was doing the right thing by exterminating all the Jews in order to create that Aryan race. He believed that race was perfect and that he was doing a favor to the world. And of course, there are people who are already extremely compassionate and are involved in donations and wellness organizations and things like that. So those are my reasons, sort of, do you have anymore? Or any input? Feedback? Please share! I am so lost!!

He is not a drunk but he acts like it. He yells at my mom all the time and makes her cry and doesnt even care. He slams the door. He doesnt care. He is so dumb. I don't understand. Their marriage was arranged. He is impossible to explain. He loves me but i lost my respect for him. My mom isnt too bright her education wasn't all that great but she is amazing and i love her. she sometimes is tough on me but its because she wants me to be succesful and not have to deal with sucha douche bag like my father. Well she didnt mention that part, but she did say that if someone is putting you down you shouldnt have to deal with it and that you should be independent. So i sortof figured that she hates my dad. But she still tries to include him in the family activites. He has RUINED my life. Hes hard to explain because hes really smart yet he is mean and stupid and CLUELESS. he doesnt understand why i hate him at all. He always says he had good intentions. My ***. He had like bipolar disorder or something. God im so sick of it. This is terrible of me to say but I just cant take it. Hes being so rude to my mother. I try to stand up to him but.. he gets REALLLY pissed off. i hate him. i HATe him I lovee my mother. please. she is the best person in my life.

I gained about 15 pounds in the summer. it isn't healthy. now im over weight before i was barely normal weight. I'm looking fat and it sucks it all sucks and i need to lose it because i always feel insecure and fat and my thighs are fattest and people used to say im really pretty but now even my mom thinks im fat and guys used to like me (im in high school) but now idk. im not used to being this fat. I used to play sports but I don't really have time now. I still do but less. also i eat way too much. i cant stop. food is so good. thats my problem. i can run and everything well but i eat so much i cant stop im a pig what should i do become bullimic?? i cant throw up on purpose i already tried that. I just gag a little but nothing comes up.. HELP!!! PLEASE I DONT WANT TO BE FAT!!!!!!!

okay we are reading the pearl by john steinback ( i liked that book!! am i the only one? everyone else hates it) in class and we r listening to an audiobook while r teacher goes on myspace or whatever she does. and theres this acoustic guitar part in the beginning of the book does anyone know what im talking about?

im like obsessed. idk. whenever theres like a song by piano or guitar that like moves me, or is like sorrowful i just like idk i luvvvvv slow deep piano songs or acoustic guitar. i dnt think anyone will get what im trying to say. i dont even get it. sometimes u dont have the right words to say what u are feeling, u kno? when u r trying to explain how cool something is, the words trash it. they make it sound lame. just like right now. i cant explain!! ugh. im crazu. but do u kno what im saying?

like do you prefer white people? asians? blacks? mixs? phillipino? idk tell me!

the winter ones u kno the big ginormous (i know thats not a word) ones