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I am wondering what the solution is to a mistake I made in the past :

My sister offered me a slice of melon and said it was soul food and I took it and then my brain shrank and I noticed a dark figure like the description of the Devil. Next, many Christians gossiped about me saying am going to hell because I sold my soul to a guy online and took the slice of melon offered to me as a sacrifice to me and I sold my soul to the devil.

If this is true, what can I do now to gain back my salvation and be accepted into paradise? What can I do to make it up to God and to Jesus Christ and be forgiven by God and Jesus and dismissed? What can I do to make up for selling my soul to the devil?

I completed and got a cert in a paid training course in Secretarial skills,admin and computing in 2008. However, my instructor failed to get me work experience inside an office or at reception, as there were none available for me. Next I went on to pass the University access program and got accepted in University and had to take a year out due to severe symptoms of fatigue in 2014. Went back to University in 2015 and tried to get experience or paid work in a hostel which I stayed at many times so I sent my CV resume and application through email. Although they were very impressed with my application, they rejected me. Next I notice a leak at reception and am told to ignore it. Shortly after, am told within a week of my stay in a specific shared room to never ever stay in a shared room again because there is some bad smell coming from the room I am in and they think it is coming from my belongings. 

They tell me it is still there, despite me washing my stuff and clothes, even cleaning my bag well. I notice fungus in the bathroom and fungus on the shelf in the bedroom and strong signs of dampness, so I send a letter attached to an email, informing them about this and they don't accept responsibility for it and tell me that they have had to block off the room I am in to the public because of me. Middle of September this year, my classmate bumps into me which startles me, week later I get ibs. This led to my course turning on me, hostel plotting to remove and now smear campaigns.

I have used trains and buses for years with my travel pass that I got in 2004, as a personal with a Learning disability and in general I would sacrifice my needs and comfort for others as a sign of expression from me for another human-being. I can't get accidentally sucked into and addicted to people pleasing behaviour because of this.

Now since a month ago, the hospitalty has diagnosed me with ibs with worse symptoms of stomac releasing continuious fowl gas as well as conspitation problems and am currently on long waiting list for GP at the bottom of the waiting list. I am noticing a smell at the moment from my gas which seems like a normal mild fart smell, despite this, many passengers have gone crazy and many are trying and planning on getting me thrown off the train so they don't have to put up with being exposed to a smell. This is not my fault, as I have very little control over my ibs. So any suggestions on what I can do to protect myself, my rights and my own well-being and chances of gaining employment in the future. Am currently on a 2 year part-time Tourism course outside of my home town.

In 2010, I met a computer teacher in the building where I was attending the leaving cert adult course, after grieving over a friend who I had chemistry with and a break up before that and I felt like for some reason that the teacher of the course was picking on me but don't know why she did that like hide my history book and keep asking me to take my history book out and shame me for losing the book but she has it in her desk in her drawers. He took pitty in me and we ended up hanging out with me to now. I was certain that he was chilled and down to earth and kind and my family really warmed to him and now Mum has given him a copy of a key to her house and she stays in his house as type of holiday. After several months of being in the presence of this friend, I started feeling really uncomfortable with him around him and had no idea why but it felt like strong negative energy.

This friend suffers from social anxiety and depression, is quite cynical. skeptical and sarcastic and dark humored and he tells me that I make his life and him less miserable and that I am really the only friend he has and i make him feel very relaxed and have a great time. After picking up on neediness, over-protectiveness and jealousy and meaness from him, I cut him out of my life without telling him. did it twice but it backfired. I messaged him explaining what I don't like when around him.told him face tyo face more than twice that he needs to not depend on me. he sees himself as innocent.

As an adult with learning disability. I am only one disability allowance, due to unsuccessful of finding part-time employment because I have no paid job history within that area and have mostly used my Mother's house address unintentionally for social welfare, as a few places that I rented in during my study in university, would not allow me to use their address for social welfare. There was no work-placement included in my course in college and doing higher level education with a University or college, is very expensive and there is funding available for higher levels of study if you get funding while enrolling on a degree course. Due to this, my CV resume has been constantly rejected since after October 2017 when I graduated from college. This led to me having to live in my Mothers house, especially with me sacrificing a large amount of my finances for a social relationship develop course which my teacher insisted I complete and telling me that it makes no sense to leave my Mothers house until I get a job. So I have taken his advice. I began his course last July of 2018.

Since I moved back to Mum's house, especially because I wasn't allowed to use the college address for to Employers, recruitment agencies or college or student grant organisation, I have noticed whenever I have been away from Mum's house, stuff from my bedroom and bags have gone missing and I also found some of my stuff in the bin, which really traumatised me. Mum says her house her rules.

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After being aware of the concerns raised in relation to the consequences of conventional medicine and the suppression of anything related to solving the problem which conventional medicine is treating only the symptoms of and the awareness of their strong dominance over Western society, I began to realise the lie about the medical system being based on health care than sickness management, which is what it really is based on, it led me to other information which eventually led me to the concept of the matrix. As Gp's could not detect any problems in my body which developed after gallbladder surgery and ongoing intestinal and stomic problems, seeked holistic doctors.

My mother without my permission or consent, as 32 year old I left in the middle of the night to get space from Mum because if I said where I was going, I would be prevented as she likes to control people, so she contacted the police, reported me as a missing persona and has given them my personal details to track my whereabouts any time. She also put ideas on their head how irresponsible I am in my relationships with people and making false judgements on me because my mother has deep emotional problems and has used me as her rock or comfort blanket. Many family members have done this to me also. So how do I get out of this ****. I am a smart person, who happens to have a learning disability. My mother never really got the opportunity to be a mother, as my mother used to work most times up until my late teens.

He now knows since the last time, that I live 6 hours away from him I usually do not usually stay in the county he is, ever week, but only every 2-3 weeks to one month 'you have been here many time's haven't you, several times you have been here'.I turned him Sean down for a dance on the first night I met him when he approached me at the bar, because he was a doorman bouncer working. RecentlySean's mate the bouncer doorman was displaying strong signs of attraction towards me and he asked if I was single and had a boyfriend and where I was from and what I am doing at the weekend and when he told me to share a room with his bouncer mate Sean, Sean immediately responded with 'pass no heed of him'.

So he asked me to come in from the cold, said 'Come closer to me I won't bite for feck sake. so I do and all is fine and then his whole character changes and he completely invades my space and acts like a pulling by several times after me responding, saying 'will I bin your sandwich and then backs off and is gentleman. got freegig.

So here are ideas of why I think he behaved that way

1- he wants to control me for some reason and feels intimidated by me or is his way of winning me over

2 - he has strong sexual urges towards me and he is resisting very hard to kiss me

3- he is very upset with me about something and will not express his pain for me not dancing for him on the first night I met him when he approached me at the bar, even though this happened months ago.

What thoughts come to mind when you hear or think about the word 'failure and what it is associated with'...? What influenced you to have these thoughts and attitude about the word ' and nature of failure'...??? This an exercise for you all.

Please comment below.

Thank you!

If you feel that there is something wrong with the world around you and you have noticed something odd about the currently reality and would love to speak to someone about it, then please message me. I would be very happy to discuss these themes with you.

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I want to empower people to enable them to manage their own lives and overcome corruption and lies etc. As well as people helping each other cope.

I lack the skills of trying to get groups such as independent, empowerment and patriot anti-domination and anti-dictatorship/anti-fascism started, including how to go about convincing or influencing people to want to contact me, respond to my flyers or messages and to attend an event, whereas others seem to be very successful a this.

There are groups in the world against feminism and political correctness

there are groups in the world against vaccines and property violations and problems in with the law.

An example of my failure to begin a group and convince people to come to it, was my flyer or poster on college campus about people who experienced sickness or depression and recovered from it and I mentioned a film script I was doing in class, for one of my objectives for creating this group and meeting and for focusing on this topic, as well as a form of empowerment and hope for those still suffering or for the other reason of sharing life experiences and challenges as like a form biography or auto-biography and journaling. However, I did not achieve my goal and am wondering how I could have gone a bit achieving my goal. I do not say anything offensive in my message or images, it was just like a community theme.

Thanks very much for your attention,

Really looking forward to your suggestions and knowledge.

Thank you.

Hello,

I am from the Republic of Ireland.

I had no idea that people on here were hoping to meet someone. I thought it was based on assisting people with dating and relationship advice.

I am very interested in ancient knowledge, including philosophy. I care a lot about the constitution.

I am a singer-songwriter and enjoy attending open mics and karaoke. I also love going to music festivals, music gigs, and concerts. I am more impressed by songwriters than cover artists.

Being connected to nature is very relieving and enjoyable and this includes hearing the waves.

I enjoy meeting new people and considering various views of life. I am also very interested in Christianity.

It is quite possible that in some way I am quite a traditionalist, even though I value and appreciate services such as coffee shops, cinemas, and outlets to improve the physical appearance of women and men. I love embracing the moment, while at the same, making plans for my future, to enable me to achieve certain goals or dreams in life such as making more money or making a song-lyric book or getting into a band. I believe that it is important to put a lot of effort into things which we want to attract in life, even people. So I am also a self-learner.

If you like what you hear, then feel free to message me.

Thank you very for your attention.

Hello,

hope you all had a nice summer.

Due to the rise of feminism and restrictions to freedom of speech and access to internet and equality in the justice system, I am quite eager in making male-penpals online who can open up to me about the experiences within the area below and who I can hopefully help in any way I can, whatever way necessary.

From my background in Sociology in UNI, I shockingly noticed that not only were men afraid to report abuse from men and women that there were strong violations within the justice system or civil system when it came to Fathers and this upset me. I was convinced for years and constantly told that Feminism is about protecting the rights of men and women and about enabling both males and females to express themselves and to put an end to rape and abuse of women.

I also discovered more shocking news, because a woman was underage when she had sex, her own parents or Mother decided to sue her boyfriend and charge her boyfriend with rape. There are also cases of false allegations of rape by women, where women are believed and too many cases of divorce and lack of understanding of the purpose of marriage.

Am willing to help with these issues in any way I can and maybe even make some pen-pals and spread the word about it. I could even spread the word about what being a man actually means, then what society today's is presenting it as. I want to let all you men know that I noticed bias in an essay on women as sexual objects.

Thanks

Hello,

hope you all had a nice summer.

Due to the rise of feminism and restrictions to freedom of speech and access to internet and equality in the justice system, I am quite eager in making male-penpals online who can open up to me about the experiences within the area below and who I can hopefully help in any way I can, whatever way necessary.

From my background in Sociology in UNI, I shockingly noticed that not only were men afraid to report abuse from men and women that there were strong violations within the justice system or civil system when it came to Fathers and this upset me. I was convinced for years and constantly told that Feminism is about protecting the rights of men and women and about enabling both males and females to express themselves and to put an end to rape and abuse of women.

I also discovered more shocking news, because a woman was underage when she had sex, her own parents or Mother decided to sue her boyfriend and charge her boyfriend with rape. There are also cases of false allegations of rape by women, where women are believed and too many cases of divorce and lack of understanding of the purpose of marriage.

Am willing to help with these issues in any way I can and maybe even make some pen-pals and spread the word about it. I could even spread the word about what being a man actually means, then what society today's is presenting it as. I want to let all you men know that I noticed bias in an essay on women as sexual objects.

Thanks

There is a guy from my college, in a relationship now. I have had a couple of dreams about spending time with him as if we were going out and I woke with 'No....! I met him in a shop, as his mate introduced me to him as study partner suggestion and he knew me from his class subjects, so I took his number. If I was meant to keep away from him because according to my gut or voices 'he is not what he seems he has power problems he is a player.

He was the main person I bumped into on a consistent daily basis and I ended up being in the presence of his friends who accepted me. I was attracted to one of his friends before he even approached him or befriended him but thought he was very aggressive, so I didn't approach him out of fear?

He sat beside and communicated with a woman I wanted to get to know and was drawn to, why was he sitting beside a guy and communicating with a guy, I felt very physically attracted to and curious about.

He was working as a receptionist at a hostel which my ex-boyfriend highly recommended me to stay in and intentionally ignoring him and refusing to communicate with him at college while feeling guilty and like a hypocrite because I try to treat everyone equally.

In year one, in psychology seminar ,I noticed him sucking and licking a pen extremely, while checking out every woman in the room and ignoring me, not even looking at me, provoking most of my infatuation, curiosity, and fear.

Thanks very much for your attention.

There is a guy from my college, in a relationship now. I have had a couple of dreams about spending time with him as if we were going out and I woke with 'No....! I met him in a shop, as his mate introduced me to him as study partner suggestion and he knew me from his class subjects, so I took his number. If I was meant to keep away from him because according to my gut or voices 'he is not what he seems he has power problems he is a player.

He was the main person I bumped into on a consistent daily basis and I ended up being in the presence of his friends who accepted me. I was attracted to one of his friends before he even approached him or befriended him but thought he was very aggressive, so I didn't approach him out of fear?

He sat beside and communicated with a woman I wanted to get to know and was drawn to, why was he sitting beside a guy and communicating with a guy, I felt very physically attracted to and curious about.

He was working as a receptionist at a hostel which my ex-boyfriend highly recommended me to stay in and intentionally ignoring him and refusing to communicate with him at college while feeling guilty and like a hypocrite because I try to treat everyone equally.

In year one, in psychology seminar ,I noticed him sucking and licking a pen extremely, while checking out every woman in the room and ignoring me, not even looking at me, provoking most of my infatuation, curiosity, and fear.

Thanks very much for your attention.

I am quite shy but confident in other areas and love to listen to music, act, sing, write and do research.

I feel that whatever ability we have available to use is worth being appreciative of and that it should be used to the best of our ability including the great benefits of youth, income, and independence. What I mean is that I believe in making the most of these experiences before it reaches the time where this is taken away from you and you no longer have this freedom but at least you did it.

If you aged so much and couldn't do very much, and you held off on the things you wanted to do, then you would regret it. So it's best to do it now why the option is there; such as traveling, skiing, going to a match, trying a certain type of meal etc. Whatever you fancy, while there is nothing stopping you. I am currently looking for 'Dating 'Experiences. I am very interested in the idea of love for human beings and I would like to meet many different people until I chose to settle with someone, which will be a while, in my case but I would like to go dining and to movies and hang out.

I would like any type of encounter which consists of two-way responsibility, and where, just like a commitment or friendship or job or course, both parties are willing to make each-other comfortable and to feel loved and important. Nothing must be based on oneself alone. That is my motto and it's what I call fairness and a great offer or bargain.

Thank you very much for your attention.

he strong alpha male energy terrifies me and apart of this is child hood conditioning and influence from the media. I notice that I am comfortable around guys who act humble, patient, who are friendly, very loving and helpful and gentle with me and other people. I have been approached many times and the guys who would only want one stand with me or friends with benefits would usually compliment me on my personality, which would be pretty accurate personal traits, especially since very few people disagree with. I love companionships and lots of time in my own company, as well as learning new knowledge, being creative and meeting new people and have power over my life and actions. So basically, I fear guys who have strong sexual attraction towards me and show it, especially very attractive looking charming males and I also fear a guy placing his own happiness and joy one me or someone who needs to see me daily and maybe even often, because I love my own space. I am very open to getting to know and learning to trust the alpha male type which my family doesn't like or trust and see as vain and selfish, especially attractive looking confident males, so every time they approach me I get paranoid, defensive and stereotype them. I am talking about the guys who want to be providers and protectors for a woman who have gained great independence in their lives and are quite content and positive. This includes alphas in employment. Thanks very much for your attention.