Harry

I work flex-time so i dont get the same pay each month. I'd like to know what percentage of my wages should go to each section of my Expenses/Budget each month.

My Monthly Expenses/Budget

1. Savings

2. Housekeeping

3. School

4. Transport

5. Everything Else

any ideas would be appreaciated

he's the first person i can tell everything to, i trust him without question

but i can't help but feel he really doesnt deserve this type of stress and that he would be better off without this relationship, it'd break my heart if he left i didnt think i could feel this close to anouther person, i've never trusted anyone this much in my life, i've always kept everything close, shields up, even my best friends only knew about the superficial stuff and the real problems were mine alone to bear...

He's stood by me through a lot, when we were friends and when we became a couple...

hell before we were a couple he was my gotoguy i called him up at 12 at night crying and terrified because my dad had freaked and lashed out at me... i had a black eye with cuts along my nose, forhead and under my eye, blood dripping down my face (i still have the scars from where i was cut) and bruises on my back and stomach.... i'd run away and was just sat in the park when he found me, as soon as i saw him i burst out crying

---> his dad was the same as mine is in many ways, but after his mum died he moved out into a council run scheem which is basically student dorms - he barely ever sees his dad

he told me i was staying with him, and i did, took him god knows how long to calm me down enough so i could tell him what happened... he gave me my options, but i wasnt ready to give up on my dad, i'm still not ready to give up on my dad, there has to be some way to make him proud to make him love me like he does my brothers...

a lot of other things have happened, i've been admitted to hospital twice - but that was unrelated to my dads actions... and i've been withdrawn from my exams because i missed 12 weeks of college time in hospital or A&E and may not be able to go to uni this year as a result.

he's been with me through all of this

but after a few good months of no violence things with my dad are getting steadily worse... i've got bruises on my stomach and legs from where i've been punched and scratch marks down my arm its getting difficult to hide it from him and i dont know how i can tell him its happening again, he saw the marks on my arm and i told him that i must have got it from play fighting with one of the dogs.... he's in the middle of his exams, this is his crucial year - he needs to pass with high grades and he needs to pass this year - after his mum died he flunked his origional A2 exams so re-sat them this year, and a 4th year wouldnt look good to unis

i don't want to hide this from him i need to talk to him but i don't know how to fix this :( at the minuet i'm not staying at home i would go to court but that made things so much worse, i would move out permanently but i don't want to loose my family i love them so much and its my own doing anyway i should know better than to provoke my dad by mentioning uni and by being such a failure and disappointment on a constant basis

He's 19, he had one girlfriend before me, they were together for a year and a bit and they lost their V to eachother

I'm 18, i've had quite a few boyfriends lasting between 6months and 10months and one serious boyfriend that lasted 2 years and a bit. but the furthest i've ever gone with a guy is kissed. Never done anything else, never even felt under a guys shirt :/

... well i've been with him for a long time now (good few months) and we've been getting closer and closer emotionally and more passionate when we kiss, but whenever things start to get heated - like they might actually be leading somewhere i get soo incredibly nervous and kind of freeze up - i start worrying whether i'm doing things right, and what should i say, am i kissing him okay, blah blah, blah - my head gets so clogged up :(

... we've talked about it and he's been really understanding and says there's no way he wants to pressure me into anything etc. but idk, i really really like this guy and i know we can last, i don't want to screw things up because i can't move forwards, is there something wrong with me for being like this?